Torombolo
17-04-12, 23:52
I am on this position again ,,back to work ones again!!!! and i am saying this is because like 7 years i have been on this ride ,,going to work ones at work anxiety or depression,agoraphobia hit me so i live the job go back to home stays there for weeks ,months , then when i got my medication raised again starts to look for work again!! i said that my medication raised is because 7 years ago i was under different kind of medication i was under xanax(alprazolam) for my anxiety and i was not having nothing for depression i had alprazolam(xanax) for almost 15 years or so,to the point in wich i was not having the therapeutic effect no more i had to raised the xanax to 9 milligrams a day and almost at end of the day the effect was washed out so i had to take more,this situation start to bring me lots of problems in my life, because no any doctor in canada the country that i moved from usa 7 years ago with my wife and son,want it to keep prescribe me no more xanax, for my benefit of course but after taking this medication for so many years all my psicology or way to feel and think amazingly start to change when i was under xanax i was always like motivated to work and do things,but after start with many different kind of medications and many different doctors here in canada i start to be prescribed for depression and ofcoures for anxiety. i have had many different antidepressants trough this years like remeron,citalopram,etc and after taking them and wait to see how they work on me? i end up having (venlafaxine)effexor for depression and seroquel for anxiety and depression too,all this after 7 years of different medications and doctors like i said before,during all this years i have been on many different kind of jobs and all the jobs agencies here in the small town that i am living with my wife and son,because i was on the search of the right medication for me i failed on many jobs and ofcouse on many jobs agencies living me on very bad lab oral position because no any job agency trust on me no more and stop giving me jobs and because i am living in a very small town there is not many opportunities of work plus the economical situation look for work is very difficult my wife is doing very good she is a nurse and have a very good work and makes good money, i use to be the economical support for my family, my wife did not work because i was in charge of the family,now she is,, not me,, my last job that i had i did the best i could and the women in charge told me don't worry this job is for long time,after 3 months when i was already use to the job, she call me up and told me that she had to let me go or lay off,,,,, for no reason she told me that the economy in the factory was not too good,but why she told me 3 months before that the job was for long time? and the girl in the job agency did call me and told me that she has been told that i was given lay off because bad economy in the factory,, the thing is that i have already 4 months unemployed again! and waiting for the job agency to call me for a job,i really don't know for how many times do i have to pass for this same situation in my life but it is not easy get a job every 3 or 4 months and get to know the job the co-workers and then start all over again !!:weep:
at least i have my medications set for i hope rest of my life,the problem is that taking seroquel makes me very very sleepy and i have to make a big effort to wake me up,and for some reason since i stop taking the xanax years ago, i have never back to feel that motivation for work or make things in my life like with this medications my anxiety is almost under control but my depression i think is not and my motivation is way too low,so i have sometimes to take caffeine pills in the morning just to wake me up and i of course know that caffeine is not good for anxiety but i dont know what else to take to give me motivation and kill my Somnolence (or "drowsiness") for any reason the motivation that i use to have is gone, and i usually feels like afraid or worry of start new things ! on before i was not like this now i can say that my anxiety is almost under control but my motivation is almost "zero" or none at all,and wake me up is very difficult so because i don't want to go back into anxiety or fear, i do prefer to keep taking this medications and i am very afraid of asking to my dr because anything that i say to her about my medications or feelings she answers me that she is not trained as a psychiatric and she needs to send me to a specialist , which gives me so much fear because i don't want to be taken off this medications because after so many years of trying different medications this one at leas control my anxiety and i am able to function not 100% but at least 70% and can go out alone and go stores and different places alone,, so i don't want to start again with all this proses that has taken so long,, any one could help me or advise me what can i take for my motivation and drowsiness any thing that i can buy over the counter???
i really appreciate the input to this, thank you very much.:weep:
at least i have my medications set for i hope rest of my life,the problem is that taking seroquel makes me very very sleepy and i have to make a big effort to wake me up,and for some reason since i stop taking the xanax years ago, i have never back to feel that motivation for work or make things in my life like with this medications my anxiety is almost under control but my depression i think is not and my motivation is way too low,so i have sometimes to take caffeine pills in the morning just to wake me up and i of course know that caffeine is not good for anxiety but i dont know what else to take to give me motivation and kill my Somnolence (or "drowsiness") for any reason the motivation that i use to have is gone, and i usually feels like afraid or worry of start new things ! on before i was not like this now i can say that my anxiety is almost under control but my motivation is almost "zero" or none at all,and wake me up is very difficult so because i don't want to go back into anxiety or fear, i do prefer to keep taking this medications and i am very afraid of asking to my dr because anything that i say to her about my medications or feelings she answers me that she is not trained as a psychiatric and she needs to send me to a specialist , which gives me so much fear because i don't want to be taken off this medications because after so many years of trying different medications this one at leas control my anxiety and i am able to function not 100% but at least 70% and can go out alone and go stores and different places alone,, so i don't want to start again with all this proses that has taken so long,, any one could help me or advise me what can i take for my motivation and drowsiness any thing that i can buy over the counter???
i really appreciate the input to this, thank you very much.:weep: