LizardQueen
20-04-12, 15:58
OK, I am new to this so bear with me. Ive suffered from depression a number of years and recently found out that I may be suffering with GAD rather than all of the other things that have been 'assumed' about me (health anxiety/morbid jealousy/clnical depression, etc etc). I have a terrible tendency to push every man I date away for fear that he will cheat on me or leave me. I have done this throughout my life and I am currently in a very loving relationship with a man who is awesome. The patterns I have followed my entire life are pushing him away and Im desperate to stop my thoughts that he is doing wrong by me. I wont go into all of my history as you will be bored stupid. If Im not stressing about him its about my kids health, my health, or some other random worry. Once I start it seems impossible to stop until I can have certainty that everything is ok. It drives me CRAZY! In my efforts to change I am getting help from a CBT therapist and today I started a 10mg dose of Citalopram. I am scared stiff. I am also (with thanks to PsychoPoets post) taking 5 tablets of 250mg inositol with Choline (they had no powdered stuff). So, if no-one has any objections I would like to vent on here about my experiences and also get support as I know this is going to be a tough ride. Thank you all for taking the time to read. x