Agoraphobia/holiday

[brenda]

Hi All

I really want to go and see my daughter. She lives in Kent which is 3 hours away by train.
Well my dad has offered to pay for my husband and me to go and see her and stay in a hotel for a few days.


Yesterday I was really positive and was going to go soon.
I've been reading Claire Weekes and a book called the Anxiety Cure.
Of course I could do it. Easy Peasy. NOT!!!!

I had a bad night with only 3 hours sleep and now am full of 'what ifs'

I also have a fear of jumping out of the window.
Last year I went and where we stayed was on the 3rd floor with a balcony - lovely views over the sea - I developed this fear of sleepwalking and jumping off the balcony even though I dont sleepwalk so at night I was really stressed.
Where did that thought/fear come from

This year we will be staying in a different hotel.
In the brochure it said windows that open.. Arghhh that set of the anxiety again

Also the journey last year was horrendous.
I had palpitations and panic all the way there and all the way back. I have been on the train since doing short journeys and was fine once I got on the train but am worried about being bad like i was last year.
Why does all the theory go out the window?

Probably cause I am so tired today
Any tips would be appreciated

Thanks
Pam x

[carlin]

Hi there, yesterday you were positive and so you will be tomorrow, today is a minor hiccup! You will be fine, you have done it, although you felt awful, and survived, this time you will be great! Take your book with you and print off any information from this site, that's what i did last year to get me on a holiday abroad - and it worked, of course you will feel anxious, make your hotel room your new safe haven for a few days and give your daughter a great big hug!!!! xx

[brenda]

Thank you both so much for your replies.
I will try what you suggest and let you know how i get on.
I am planning on doing a 40 minute train journey shortly. that will be half the journey to Kent.
If I can do that I will feel much better about the longer journey.

Thanks again
Pam