lindajane1971
24-04-12, 19:30
Ive been dreading this day for the last 364 days, but i cannot avoid it any longer, oh how i hate the month of April!!
It was 4 years ago tonight that my mum died. Well her date of death is actually the 25th but it was just after midnight and it was the hours before that was so full of chaos and panic that i always associate the last few hours of the 24th the most with her death.
It certainly does not feel like its been 4 years, i still cannot come to terms with her death and i dont think i ever will. She was 54, strong as an ox and the light of the family, she didnt drink much, was healthy but did smoke.
I had spent a couple of hours with her that day and when i left she was just away to make her supper and nothing was amiss.
At 10.30pm i got a frantic call from my Aunt to say mum was really ill and was going to the hospital in an ambulance. I drove over the other side of town in my nightie to find out what was going on to see that she had already left for the hospital. I got a lift to the hospital, still in my nightie, and when we got there was put into a side room to wait. A half hour later and a doctor and support worker came in and said there was nothing they could do, she was gone. Heart Attack.
I still cannot believe that 4 years on i still am expecting her to just come waltzing through the door like she's been away on holiday or away with work!!!
OMG i miss her so much, she had the most infecious laugh, and she would just make everyone laugh so much with her silly quotes and ideas that were just so daft and silly. She always had time for everyone, especially Gran who she would look after, take to the bingo and out for runs in the car all over the countryside. Gran misses her so very much too.
Our world is such a quiet place without her.
My heart just aches with sadness today
RIP Mum, love you x
It was 4 years ago tonight that my mum died. Well her date of death is actually the 25th but it was just after midnight and it was the hours before that was so full of chaos and panic that i always associate the last few hours of the 24th the most with her death.
It certainly does not feel like its been 4 years, i still cannot come to terms with her death and i dont think i ever will. She was 54, strong as an ox and the light of the family, she didnt drink much, was healthy but did smoke.
I had spent a couple of hours with her that day and when i left she was just away to make her supper and nothing was amiss.
At 10.30pm i got a frantic call from my Aunt to say mum was really ill and was going to the hospital in an ambulance. I drove over the other side of town in my nightie to find out what was going on to see that she had already left for the hospital. I got a lift to the hospital, still in my nightie, and when we got there was put into a side room to wait. A half hour later and a doctor and support worker came in and said there was nothing they could do, she was gone. Heart Attack.
I still cannot believe that 4 years on i still am expecting her to just come waltzing through the door like she's been away on holiday or away with work!!!
OMG i miss her so much, she had the most infecious laugh, and she would just make everyone laugh so much with her silly quotes and ideas that were just so daft and silly. She always had time for everyone, especially Gran who she would look after, take to the bingo and out for runs in the car all over the countryside. Gran misses her so very much too.
Our world is such a quiet place without her.
My heart just aches with sadness today
RIP Mum, love you x