Pinkcasi
25-04-12, 17:54
I've just realised that i have Health Anxiety, i always just thought that i was a bit of a hypochondriac that's what my family always said i never realised it was an actual thing!
I suffer with General Anxiety and Depression and the family have always said im a weirdo am totally OCD about stuff, using the hygine gel and what not but i dont see it as a problem so i like to be clean is that wrong?! i like to have a clean house urm wrong? i like to have things in the right place is that weird, I hve to use 3 different brushes for different stages of hair cleanliness does it effect anyone else, no so what's the problem with it!?!?!?
Anyway i digress, so Health Anxiety, i dont know if i feel better or worse knowing that it's an actual thing, i mean doens't that just give me carte blanche to be as 'weird' as i like? I wonder as well if it's bad as now i know it's just a part of my anxiety will that stop me from going to the Dr? im convinced im ill, i mean i have been ill with Pleurisy on and off for a few months last time i went for a chest x ray as i was convinced i had lung cancer but it's all clear well how can they know it's pleurisy if it's all clear?!? im tired all the time, achey and sometimes dizzy, i've just come off and gone back on my meds so that might be messing with me but i swear im sicker than the average person, im currently in the middle of the 3rd cold in 3 months that's not normal is it, im constantly cold and no matter how much sleep i get im always exhausted.
So convinced i am that there is something sinister going on, am i just being silly, is it HA or what.
Im just sorta thinking out loud, (or writing) and dont really expect a mass influx of responses, i just wonder whether knowing or even suspecting you have HA does more harm than good, if you say 'its ok it's only my illness', does it make it any less crazy?
I suffer with General Anxiety and Depression and the family have always said im a weirdo am totally OCD about stuff, using the hygine gel and what not but i dont see it as a problem so i like to be clean is that wrong?! i like to have a clean house urm wrong? i like to have things in the right place is that weird, I hve to use 3 different brushes for different stages of hair cleanliness does it effect anyone else, no so what's the problem with it!?!?!?
Anyway i digress, so Health Anxiety, i dont know if i feel better or worse knowing that it's an actual thing, i mean doens't that just give me carte blanche to be as 'weird' as i like? I wonder as well if it's bad as now i know it's just a part of my anxiety will that stop me from going to the Dr? im convinced im ill, i mean i have been ill with Pleurisy on and off for a few months last time i went for a chest x ray as i was convinced i had lung cancer but it's all clear well how can they know it's pleurisy if it's all clear?!? im tired all the time, achey and sometimes dizzy, i've just come off and gone back on my meds so that might be messing with me but i swear im sicker than the average person, im currently in the middle of the 3rd cold in 3 months that's not normal is it, im constantly cold and no matter how much sleep i get im always exhausted.
So convinced i am that there is something sinister going on, am i just being silly, is it HA or what.
Im just sorta thinking out loud, (or writing) and dont really expect a mass influx of responses, i just wonder whether knowing or even suspecting you have HA does more harm than good, if you say 'its ok it's only my illness', does it make it any less crazy?