Trbfan
28-04-12, 09:15
I guess I will go ahead and post this now even though I just posted my introduction. I guess I should start with medical history prior to all this..Well..There was none...
To start..I'm sorry if this is lengthy but I feel I need to get all of this out to understand the full issue.
In school I never truly had an anxiety issue, except when things happen like I missed an assignment, even if it didn't matter I would just get this sick feeling in my stomach, to the point where I almost got physically sick..I never associated this with anxiety..Fast forward to now..I am 20, (American), with a so far undiagnosed set of conditions.
I guess I can be considered a very self conscious person which doesn't help any of this, and I also used to get a lot of things back in school like stomach butterflies just going somewhere or meeting friends, etc...Now that I am through this, on to the medical stuff.
I guess the first thing happened approximately 4 years ago. I went to the doctor simply with dizzyness. Ran blood tests, nothing was found. I went to the medclinic probably 6 months after that with dizzyness, this time they found that my right ear was clogged with wax..For whatever reason that ear clogs and not the other. We cleaned that out, and moved on. In feburary 2010, the first real odd symptom happened. I was out shoveling dirt, and moving leaves and when I came in I noticed that two fingers on my left hand were burning, similar to the feeling you get when they are too cold, it was cool that day so I ran them under some hot water, but that didnt do anything. After an hour that went away, but later that night I was doing some work and the back of my neck went numb. This..scared me a little. The next morning my neck, neck, throat were going numb. I went to the medclinic. An MRI was ordered. I had an MRI of the head/neck/upper half of the back. Absolutely nothing abnormal was found. The symptoms continued and over the next two weeks got worse, I was feeling sick, numb in certain posistions, if I leaned forward I felt better, if I leaned back I felt worse. Consistent to some kind of pinched nerve. I went to the chiropractor and over the next year it evened out with mainly just numbness on the right side of my throat. I would still get a lot of numbness, but it was predictable, and I was going to the chiropractor and that was keeping it even. I still went to the neurologist, went through all the checks..Again nothing found. In may of 2011, something happened. I got a horrible attack, with dizzyness, numbness over the right half of my chest into the throat, shortness of breath, and I was admittely freaking out. I went to the doctor and they diagnosed it as panic attack. To this day I still do not believe that was the only culprit that particular night, after they drugged me up the symptoms were still there. They did run an EKG on me and nothing abnormal was found.
These odd attacks kept up first weekly, and became almost nightly. I kept up my excersize routine until the end june/early july when I ran in a pretty major go kart race here..Between may and july, and I began developing severe health anxiety. I started KNOWING I had heart issues, I started KNOWING I had cancer. I started knowing that the rarest diseases known to man were going to happen to me. I started going to doctor after doctor after doctor. One thing I really noticed, I began to notice every heartbeat, every single odd feeling pain. Every single room temperature change. One thing that did start and has been happening still is that if I get up after laying down for an hour or two, my heart will pound for a minute or two. I do not know if it happened before, and I do not know if it is normal. Anyway. I went to the doctor had another EKG..Again..Nothing. I was sent to the neurologist again..Nothing. I began to worry about everything.
In September I read of someone my age who played video games a lot that passed away from a blood clot..Now I like to play video games a lot..So this freaked me out...I have played sports all my life...Even though did probably sit too much when I was home. This terrified me..To the point where now I get antsy if I sit more than 15 minutes, and I am constantly checking my legs for red spots, and for pains...There has been a pain increase in my legs and everywhere since october. Throughout all this time all these symptoms have continued and seemingly have gotten weirder. They feel different every time. The numbness goes to my head, sometimes I get bad vertigo, sometimes my extremities feel heavy, sometimes the extremities feel light. sometimes I feel like I cant breathe, sometimes I get pins and needles feelings anywhere, sometimes I get pains randomy. My chest has become very sensitive to any pressure. Even buttons on a polo shirt agitate me. I do believe still that I have a pinched nerve in combination with all this...
Now to the tests I have had. Throughout going to the neurologists, doctors, and cardiologists..I had another MRI last year that came out normal. I had a EEG of my to make sure there was no seizure. I had a myriad of blood tests which showed nothing truly abnormal. I also went to the cardiologist...I had an echocardiogram and a stress test on my first day..I nearly passed out on the treadmill after..this worried me cause I used to do sports all the time. They called it a vaso-vagil reaction possibly due to dehydration, but I think it could have been anxiety or my nerves pinching. After that I had...a bubble echocardiogram, 2 more EKG's, a transesophogeal echocardiogram, a heart CT scan, a 24 hour heart monitor. Possibly more that I dont even remember right now. The only thing any of those heart tests showed was a P.F.O. It was explained to me that a PFO is a small flap that hasnt closed all the way. The cardiologist explained that 3 of every 10 people have it, and that there is NO health risk with it. And that mine was actually small compared to most. Every doctor I have asked since says this is also not a problem..But it has freaked me out. And that was the ONLY thing found on any of the huge amount of tests I have had. I also had an ultrasound of my right leg when I had concerns of a clot, and I had an ultrasound of my stomach when we were concerned of a possible gall bladder issue.
So here I am..All these tests, and almost nothing to show for it, except for a pfo which supposedly is nothing. I am CONSTANTLY worrying about health issues, constantly thinking about clots, strokes, heart issues..It prevents me from having ANY fun. I cant get it out of my head. On top of this im having the odd symptoms such as numbness, heavyness, lightness, LOTS of vertigo, odd headaches, odd pins and needles feelings, odd twitching, odd muscle pain. I've said many times before that if there was an odd feeling someone can get I've had it. I do believe there is a pinched nerve, and actually TMJ. But I know for a fact anxiety is making me feel horrible all the time. 20 year olds typically do not worry and obsess over clots, strokes, and heart issues. When I signed up for this site a couple days ago I was freaking out sure that I was having a stroke, because I had facial twitching during a panic attack. My life is now controlled by anxiety and health worries whether I am home or away from home.
I am just wondering if anyone has experienced similar symptoms or anything like this. I know my mental ability has been affected, I have had friends tell me that they have noticed a change in me. I am just looking for reassurance that I am ok. Most of these things I worry about are literally 1 in a million for people my age but I cant get em out of my head.
Thanks for reading this.
To start..I'm sorry if this is lengthy but I feel I need to get all of this out to understand the full issue.
In school I never truly had an anxiety issue, except when things happen like I missed an assignment, even if it didn't matter I would just get this sick feeling in my stomach, to the point where I almost got physically sick..I never associated this with anxiety..Fast forward to now..I am 20, (American), with a so far undiagnosed set of conditions.
I guess I can be considered a very self conscious person which doesn't help any of this, and I also used to get a lot of things back in school like stomach butterflies just going somewhere or meeting friends, etc...Now that I am through this, on to the medical stuff.
I guess the first thing happened approximately 4 years ago. I went to the doctor simply with dizzyness. Ran blood tests, nothing was found. I went to the medclinic probably 6 months after that with dizzyness, this time they found that my right ear was clogged with wax..For whatever reason that ear clogs and not the other. We cleaned that out, and moved on. In feburary 2010, the first real odd symptom happened. I was out shoveling dirt, and moving leaves and when I came in I noticed that two fingers on my left hand were burning, similar to the feeling you get when they are too cold, it was cool that day so I ran them under some hot water, but that didnt do anything. After an hour that went away, but later that night I was doing some work and the back of my neck went numb. This..scared me a little. The next morning my neck, neck, throat were going numb. I went to the medclinic. An MRI was ordered. I had an MRI of the head/neck/upper half of the back. Absolutely nothing abnormal was found. The symptoms continued and over the next two weeks got worse, I was feeling sick, numb in certain posistions, if I leaned forward I felt better, if I leaned back I felt worse. Consistent to some kind of pinched nerve. I went to the chiropractor and over the next year it evened out with mainly just numbness on the right side of my throat. I would still get a lot of numbness, but it was predictable, and I was going to the chiropractor and that was keeping it even. I still went to the neurologist, went through all the checks..Again nothing found. In may of 2011, something happened. I got a horrible attack, with dizzyness, numbness over the right half of my chest into the throat, shortness of breath, and I was admittely freaking out. I went to the doctor and they diagnosed it as panic attack. To this day I still do not believe that was the only culprit that particular night, after they drugged me up the symptoms were still there. They did run an EKG on me and nothing abnormal was found.
These odd attacks kept up first weekly, and became almost nightly. I kept up my excersize routine until the end june/early july when I ran in a pretty major go kart race here..Between may and july, and I began developing severe health anxiety. I started KNOWING I had heart issues, I started KNOWING I had cancer. I started knowing that the rarest diseases known to man were going to happen to me. I started going to doctor after doctor after doctor. One thing I really noticed, I began to notice every heartbeat, every single odd feeling pain. Every single room temperature change. One thing that did start and has been happening still is that if I get up after laying down for an hour or two, my heart will pound for a minute or two. I do not know if it happened before, and I do not know if it is normal. Anyway. I went to the doctor had another EKG..Again..Nothing. I was sent to the neurologist again..Nothing. I began to worry about everything.
In September I read of someone my age who played video games a lot that passed away from a blood clot..Now I like to play video games a lot..So this freaked me out...I have played sports all my life...Even though did probably sit too much when I was home. This terrified me..To the point where now I get antsy if I sit more than 15 minutes, and I am constantly checking my legs for red spots, and for pains...There has been a pain increase in my legs and everywhere since october. Throughout all this time all these symptoms have continued and seemingly have gotten weirder. They feel different every time. The numbness goes to my head, sometimes I get bad vertigo, sometimes my extremities feel heavy, sometimes the extremities feel light. sometimes I feel like I cant breathe, sometimes I get pins and needles feelings anywhere, sometimes I get pains randomy. My chest has become very sensitive to any pressure. Even buttons on a polo shirt agitate me. I do believe still that I have a pinched nerve in combination with all this...
Now to the tests I have had. Throughout going to the neurologists, doctors, and cardiologists..I had another MRI last year that came out normal. I had a EEG of my to make sure there was no seizure. I had a myriad of blood tests which showed nothing truly abnormal. I also went to the cardiologist...I had an echocardiogram and a stress test on my first day..I nearly passed out on the treadmill after..this worried me cause I used to do sports all the time. They called it a vaso-vagil reaction possibly due to dehydration, but I think it could have been anxiety or my nerves pinching. After that I had...a bubble echocardiogram, 2 more EKG's, a transesophogeal echocardiogram, a heart CT scan, a 24 hour heart monitor. Possibly more that I dont even remember right now. The only thing any of those heart tests showed was a P.F.O. It was explained to me that a PFO is a small flap that hasnt closed all the way. The cardiologist explained that 3 of every 10 people have it, and that there is NO health risk with it. And that mine was actually small compared to most. Every doctor I have asked since says this is also not a problem..But it has freaked me out. And that was the ONLY thing found on any of the huge amount of tests I have had. I also had an ultrasound of my right leg when I had concerns of a clot, and I had an ultrasound of my stomach when we were concerned of a possible gall bladder issue.
So here I am..All these tests, and almost nothing to show for it, except for a pfo which supposedly is nothing. I am CONSTANTLY worrying about health issues, constantly thinking about clots, strokes, heart issues..It prevents me from having ANY fun. I cant get it out of my head. On top of this im having the odd symptoms such as numbness, heavyness, lightness, LOTS of vertigo, odd headaches, odd pins and needles feelings, odd twitching, odd muscle pain. I've said many times before that if there was an odd feeling someone can get I've had it. I do believe there is a pinched nerve, and actually TMJ. But I know for a fact anxiety is making me feel horrible all the time. 20 year olds typically do not worry and obsess over clots, strokes, and heart issues. When I signed up for this site a couple days ago I was freaking out sure that I was having a stroke, because I had facial twitching during a panic attack. My life is now controlled by anxiety and health worries whether I am home or away from home.
I am just wondering if anyone has experienced similar symptoms or anything like this. I know my mental ability has been affected, I have had friends tell me that they have noticed a change in me. I am just looking for reassurance that I am ok. Most of these things I worry about are literally 1 in a million for people my age but I cant get em out of my head.
Thanks for reading this.