sunflower79
29-04-12, 18:07
Hello
I just wanted to introduce myself as this is the first time I have been on here. I have had 'diagnosed' anxiety for a couple of years now, although thinking back I have probably had it most of my life due to one reason or another.
Main reason for joining I guess is for comfort that I am not the only one, my dose of citalopram has just been upped from 20 to 30, so I am just undergoing the first set of side affects and taking betablockers to help which I'm not sure if they are helping or making it worse (?). Things have got so bad now I am having less and less to do with friends or people around me.. they seem so different to me - have a partner/husband/children and it's got to the stage now I literally can't cope being around these people and their 'happy' everyday conversations and I get really anxious, go red and leave often having a panic attack as a result of the pressure it all brings, so am feeling more comfortable on my own - which is a dangerous way to think - long term.
I am throwing myself into work which is good as it can take my mind off it, but that has become very demanding lately and I am mentally exhausted from it all. Weekends are spent hibernating, dreaming of a life which I fear I will never have.
Oh jese that was heavy! I'm sorry I had to get that off my chest. I've never really been on a forum like this so hopefully I can offer my help and learn from others.
xx
I just wanted to introduce myself as this is the first time I have been on here. I have had 'diagnosed' anxiety for a couple of years now, although thinking back I have probably had it most of my life due to one reason or another.
Main reason for joining I guess is for comfort that I am not the only one, my dose of citalopram has just been upped from 20 to 30, so I am just undergoing the first set of side affects and taking betablockers to help which I'm not sure if they are helping or making it worse (?). Things have got so bad now I am having less and less to do with friends or people around me.. they seem so different to me - have a partner/husband/children and it's got to the stage now I literally can't cope being around these people and their 'happy' everyday conversations and I get really anxious, go red and leave often having a panic attack as a result of the pressure it all brings, so am feeling more comfortable on my own - which is a dangerous way to think - long term.
I am throwing myself into work which is good as it can take my mind off it, but that has become very demanding lately and I am mentally exhausted from it all. Weekends are spent hibernating, dreaming of a life which I fear I will never have.
Oh jese that was heavy! I'm sorry I had to get that off my chest. I've never really been on a forum like this so hopefully I can offer my help and learn from others.
xx