worried 101
01-05-12, 07:58
Hi guys.this is probs going to sound real silly but here goes...basically im feeling really anxious as ive got a holiday coming up...its not like i have to get on a plane or anythibg like that but becuase for me its a big deal and ive been really looking forward to it im now creating issues in my head to try and sabotage it...like my anxiety cant bare the fact that i might actually have a good time and have time to relax so now its gunna throw up a whole load of shit for me before i go to make sure that there is somethibg worrying me.basically the worries are stupid little things like little thoughts that ive either thought ages ago or never really thught but my heads making me think them...the overall result of these worries is overwhelming feeling of guilt that juat eats a way at meeven though these are all just fleetibg thoughts that ive had that most people wouldnt even register i dpubt and not all that important but its like i just have to tell my boyfriend so there not there.the guilt is so bad that its almost a feelibg like ive cheated in some way...the worries are always something silly,something that can be completly harmless but my head twists it until it becomes something that makes me feel this giult.basically i dont know if anyone else has ever felt this but any advice would be really appreciated as dont want this to sppil my hols as some rest from my mental torture would be really nice!thanks guys.xxx