hella
01-05-12, 14:34
Hi fellow forumers :blush: (is forumers even a word?!)
Part of me is really wanting to write everything that is ticking over in my mind right now and the other half is holding back, as I'm not sure if anyone will actually read this :unsure:. Don't get me wrong I'm not insinuating that people don't care for others on this site, no, not at all - what I'm trying to say is i don't want sound like 'woe is me' because i can guarantee each one of you is or has been in the same boat as me at some stage in your life.
It's just, i don't have anyone to talk to - how sad is that?! haha I'm 30 soon and I've suffered with anxiety attacks and bouts of agoraphobia since i was about 21/22, i don't know why my panic attacks started - nothing stressful going was on in my life - i was in uni studying PA and loving it :D then my life just got flipped on its side and now I'm practically a shadow of who i use to be. I have no mates - i starting avoiding them because of the attacks, i have no job (my partner supports me) not for the lack of trying but because of the massive gap in employment (when my agoraphobia was horrendous) I'm not exactly reliable to an employer.
People reading this are probably thinking 'why doesn't she talk to her partner' I have done and do, but i know he doesn't understand what i go through everyday even though he offers words of comfort. It would be nice to talk to someone whose been in the same boat and can relate to what I'm talking about as opposed to just offering kind words - I understand that i sound selfish, but I'm really not.
Anyhoo think I've babbled on enough ha!
Thanks for reading this and if someone wants to chat, that would be great :D
Hella x
Part of me is really wanting to write everything that is ticking over in my mind right now and the other half is holding back, as I'm not sure if anyone will actually read this :unsure:. Don't get me wrong I'm not insinuating that people don't care for others on this site, no, not at all - what I'm trying to say is i don't want sound like 'woe is me' because i can guarantee each one of you is or has been in the same boat as me at some stage in your life.
It's just, i don't have anyone to talk to - how sad is that?! haha I'm 30 soon and I've suffered with anxiety attacks and bouts of agoraphobia since i was about 21/22, i don't know why my panic attacks started - nothing stressful going was on in my life - i was in uni studying PA and loving it :D then my life just got flipped on its side and now I'm practically a shadow of who i use to be. I have no mates - i starting avoiding them because of the attacks, i have no job (my partner supports me) not for the lack of trying but because of the massive gap in employment (when my agoraphobia was horrendous) I'm not exactly reliable to an employer.
People reading this are probably thinking 'why doesn't she talk to her partner' I have done and do, but i know he doesn't understand what i go through everyday even though he offers words of comfort. It would be nice to talk to someone whose been in the same boat and can relate to what I'm talking about as opposed to just offering kind words - I understand that i sound selfish, but I'm really not.
Anyhoo think I've babbled on enough ha!
Thanks for reading this and if someone wants to chat, that would be great :D
Hella x