xposure
07-07-06, 00:08
Hi Everyone,
My name's James, I'm 22 and live in surrey.
I was first ill when I was about 14. I was bed-ridden for about a year. I've now been lead to believe I was suffering from ME, but it went undiagnosed.
I had a few years where not a lot happened, then when I was 17 I had a severe period of anxiety and depression. At the time I took medication and went through counselling and about a year later, I returned to school and took one of my a-levels.
After school I started working in the music industry and progressed very fast. I was working as an 'Artist Liaison Manger' for a PLC record company until about a year ago when the old black dog from the past came back to bite me in the &r5e!! From that point onwards my life disintegrated around me. I've lost my house, I can't drive, I can't leave the house on my own. I just want a life back!
My anxiety attacks tend to involve hyperventilating and banging my head against whatever the nearest surface is, be it wall or car windscreen. Some days can be good, others at worse can mean anything up to 4 or 5 attacks a day.
I'm currently being seen at a mental health clinic where I am receiving physcothreapy. I have refused to take drugs because I feel during my first period of illness they masked the symptoms and stopped my making a full recovery.
I do take Loranzepam every night before I go to bed to help me sleep, and another tablet if I'm feeling extremely anxious.
More recently, a couple of weeks ago I started an alternative therapy called 'Bowen'. Too early to say how that's going though.
I guess I've come on here, because I just want to talk to people who understand. I have a lot of support, but the people who are around me just can't appreciate why I'm fine one minute, then banging my head against a wall the next. I feel things are getting better, but I just need a bit of space & time...
Sorry I've written so much & thank you to anyone who's read this far. I'd especially like to hear from anyone the same kind of age.
I look forward to communicating with you all.
Kindest Regards,
James x
My name's James, I'm 22 and live in surrey.
I was first ill when I was about 14. I was bed-ridden for about a year. I've now been lead to believe I was suffering from ME, but it went undiagnosed.
I had a few years where not a lot happened, then when I was 17 I had a severe period of anxiety and depression. At the time I took medication and went through counselling and about a year later, I returned to school and took one of my a-levels.
After school I started working in the music industry and progressed very fast. I was working as an 'Artist Liaison Manger' for a PLC record company until about a year ago when the old black dog from the past came back to bite me in the &r5e!! From that point onwards my life disintegrated around me. I've lost my house, I can't drive, I can't leave the house on my own. I just want a life back!
My anxiety attacks tend to involve hyperventilating and banging my head against whatever the nearest surface is, be it wall or car windscreen. Some days can be good, others at worse can mean anything up to 4 or 5 attacks a day.
I'm currently being seen at a mental health clinic where I am receiving physcothreapy. I have refused to take drugs because I feel during my first period of illness they masked the symptoms and stopped my making a full recovery.
I do take Loranzepam every night before I go to bed to help me sleep, and another tablet if I'm feeling extremely anxious.
More recently, a couple of weeks ago I started an alternative therapy called 'Bowen'. Too early to say how that's going though.
I guess I've come on here, because I just want to talk to people who understand. I have a lot of support, but the people who are around me just can't appreciate why I'm fine one minute, then banging my head against a wall the next. I feel things are getting better, but I just need a bit of space & time...
Sorry I've written so much & thank you to anyone who's read this far. I'd especially like to hear from anyone the same kind of age.
I look forward to communicating with you all.
Kindest Regards,
James x