Carolinemargaret
07-07-06, 00:35
Hi Guys,
Have not posted in a while, just kept checks on the website every so often as I have been feeling good. Not as good as I would like to feel, but good for me! When I see other people just going about their daily business and not having a care in the world, I find it hard, as I seem to constantly have to think, what if I panic while im out? What if I panic on the train? What if I panic at work? It seems to be one big world of what ifs!?! (AGHHH)
Anyway, (back to the point), have had a very bad day today, ending with me crying for the last 20 mins as it has been so tough. I went to work this am and I only finished at about 9.00pm, but every min of the day was a struggle, I constantly felt like I could not breathe and that I was going to pass out, I ate mints constantly to try and make myself feel better(but since when has a mint ever saved someones life :-)). In the end I had to take a diazipan, which is something I never do at work, but I knew by leaving I would be giving in!! (I am also on Cipralex, but feel that they must not be working as why would I have a day like today, if they were!!) Finally I had a few glasses of wine and felt a bit better, but as soon as I got in the door at home, I just cried and cried!! I am so sick of feeling like this, will it ever end!!
My chest feels really tight right now and I know that tomorrow, even if I don't feel particurly panicky, it will feel tight and like I cant breathe,because of all the coughing (not sure why that helps, think it proves to me I am still breathing) and the tension, I have put my chest through today!!
Does anybody else have this feeling that they can't breathe!? I don't even know if you would say I had a full on panic attack, is it possible to have a partial panic attack, I really don't know anymore, I just dont want to live my life like this anymore, being scared of everything and constantly worrying that I cant breathe!!! (especially when I clearly am!!!)
Its so hard!! I know that many of you have similiar problems and I do apprciate the fact that I am not alone.
As I start to ramble, i will sign off!
Nite
Caz x
Have not posted in a while, just kept checks on the website every so often as I have been feeling good. Not as good as I would like to feel, but good for me! When I see other people just going about their daily business and not having a care in the world, I find it hard, as I seem to constantly have to think, what if I panic while im out? What if I panic on the train? What if I panic at work? It seems to be one big world of what ifs!?! (AGHHH)
Anyway, (back to the point), have had a very bad day today, ending with me crying for the last 20 mins as it has been so tough. I went to work this am and I only finished at about 9.00pm, but every min of the day was a struggle, I constantly felt like I could not breathe and that I was going to pass out, I ate mints constantly to try and make myself feel better(but since when has a mint ever saved someones life :-)). In the end I had to take a diazipan, which is something I never do at work, but I knew by leaving I would be giving in!! (I am also on Cipralex, but feel that they must not be working as why would I have a day like today, if they were!!) Finally I had a few glasses of wine and felt a bit better, but as soon as I got in the door at home, I just cried and cried!! I am so sick of feeling like this, will it ever end!!
My chest feels really tight right now and I know that tomorrow, even if I don't feel particurly panicky, it will feel tight and like I cant breathe,because of all the coughing (not sure why that helps, think it proves to me I am still breathing) and the tension, I have put my chest through today!!
Does anybody else have this feeling that they can't breathe!? I don't even know if you would say I had a full on panic attack, is it possible to have a partial panic attack, I really don't know anymore, I just dont want to live my life like this anymore, being scared of everything and constantly worrying that I cant breathe!!! (especially when I clearly am!!!)
Its so hard!! I know that many of you have similiar problems and I do apprciate the fact that I am not alone.
As I start to ramble, i will sign off!
Nite
Caz x