Jenwales
06-05-12, 08:28
I'm jen. I'm 23. I find it hard to talk about my problems, it's easy online so I'll keep this short before I start worrying or something.
I had my first panic attack in a school assembly and fo weeks didn;t have a clue what was wrong with me. That made the anxiety worse, I had panic attacks all the time. After ECG monitor at home and blood tests a specialist diagnosed me with stress! So more panic attacks and anxiety and fear of assemblys. I realised I had panic attacks when an episode of GMTV featured somebody with them. So I found a book in my library 'overcoming panic' the cbt techniques helped me and me panic attacks eased and left.
Since then I've had general anxiety on and off. Bad spells and good days.
Recently: I've had two panic attacks. Went ot my doctor for help who gave me ateneolol beta blockers and who seems more concerned with my blood pressue. I have to go back to redo a blood test and blood pressure. He's told me my pill could be giving me blood pressure so just to be sure he's told me to stop taking it!
All this has made my anxiety worse, worrying if I have high blood pressure I've turned into a hyprcondrica (actualyl i already was one). Worried if I'm actually ill and also concerned he'll tell me to stop taknig my contraceptive pill for good! I'm also worrying about what happens when I stop taking this beta blocker as some say you get heart palpitations. I'm on 25mg.
Every time I think my anxiety has gone I develop a new symptom. I thought I was over panic attacks :( I just don't know what to do anymore. Yet again the drs seem useless and I have no trust in them. I feel like I cant help myself anymore.
I can't stop worrying. I can't talk to anyone nobody understands and if I saw a therapist I doubt I could talk to them either. I can't find words or the courage to talk about myself. I suffer in silence.
Anyway if you've read all this thanks for taking the time. Just thought I'd introduce myself. I don't know if this site will help me, but hi.
Maybe I can help someone else if not myself, right now I'd just love to get back to normal.
I had my first panic attack in a school assembly and fo weeks didn;t have a clue what was wrong with me. That made the anxiety worse, I had panic attacks all the time. After ECG monitor at home and blood tests a specialist diagnosed me with stress! So more panic attacks and anxiety and fear of assemblys. I realised I had panic attacks when an episode of GMTV featured somebody with them. So I found a book in my library 'overcoming panic' the cbt techniques helped me and me panic attacks eased and left.
Since then I've had general anxiety on and off. Bad spells and good days.
Recently: I've had two panic attacks. Went ot my doctor for help who gave me ateneolol beta blockers and who seems more concerned with my blood pressue. I have to go back to redo a blood test and blood pressure. He's told me my pill could be giving me blood pressure so just to be sure he's told me to stop taking it!
All this has made my anxiety worse, worrying if I have high blood pressure I've turned into a hyprcondrica (actualyl i already was one). Worried if I'm actually ill and also concerned he'll tell me to stop taknig my contraceptive pill for good! I'm also worrying about what happens when I stop taking this beta blocker as some say you get heart palpitations. I'm on 25mg.
Every time I think my anxiety has gone I develop a new symptom. I thought I was over panic attacks :( I just don't know what to do anymore. Yet again the drs seem useless and I have no trust in them. I feel like I cant help myself anymore.
I can't stop worrying. I can't talk to anyone nobody understands and if I saw a therapist I doubt I could talk to them either. I can't find words or the courage to talk about myself. I suffer in silence.
Anyway if you've read all this thanks for taking the time. Just thought I'd introduce myself. I don't know if this site will help me, but hi.
Maybe I can help someone else if not myself, right now I'd just love to get back to normal.