Zeeko1987
09-05-12, 10:10
Hi, my name's Paul and I just joined like um right there lol. Well basically for the past 6 years or so I've been hugely anxiety ridden. Suffered with depression and social anxiety disorders that led me to drinking very heavily, basically every day for years on end. I have recently curbed my drinking and am in the process of getting sober, feeling better physically and no hangovers which is such a great thing. But my anxiety has risen to new levels with trying to stop drinking and the feeling of derealisation is huge. Also I have lost all of my friends since I have become totally cut off from the outside world and agoraphobic. My Dad and brother are really the only people I talk to since I live with them, I can hardly look anyone else in the eyes for more than a second and it's a struggle to hold a conversation. I still can't hold a proper conversation with anyone for my mind wandering to different places so I can't concentrate and there is no spontinaeouty in my conversational skills. It's a bit of a pain in the arse to be honest since I really don't think I'm that anti social of a person deep down. Anyway, I was just looking for people to talk to and maybe get advice from since I'm not sure anyone that I know would be able to understand and would just jump to the conclusion of me being weird. I'll probably update when I'm feeling a little better. Anyway, just a "quick" introduction lol. Later guys.