Pinkcasi
13-05-12, 20:05
So a few weeks ago I had a falling out with my sister, she's a cow and if you don't live your life how she does then your wrong in her eyes, we fell out as she met my boyfriend and she didn't like him even though she didn't speak to him, the messages she sent me were just vile, but thats not the main issue it's not to do with him he's just a pawn in a bigger game she always does this I can't do anything right she's done this with boyfriends that she's never even met! She slates my choice of men of my choice of friends how I handle my finances anything really, I'm 33 years old but I'll always be her specky little sister. She doesn't listen to me when I try to explain this to her.
I spoke to my mum tonight and when I said 'she was the one that wished me dead' she said 'well you must have said something to antagonise her' so it's my fault it's ok to wish a sucicdal depressive dead, I must have deserved that right.
So my sister text me after mum told her I don't want to talk about it, I just don't see the point she doesn't listen, why don't we just ignore the problem that's normally what my family do, bury that head in the sand that's our way, that's probably why I have to cut myself to express myself.
So now I'm really anxious my chest is really Tight and my stomach is cramping, I don't know what to do, my family don't know I'm in the middle of an 'episode' and it wouldn't make a difference if they did, my sister doesn't believe in depression and my mum can't handle it, I just wish I could disown the lot of them.
Sorry for wall of text, my boyfriend is at work and I've no one to talk to and feel like I'm losing my mind, I feel totally lost.
I spoke to my mum tonight and when I said 'she was the one that wished me dead' she said 'well you must have said something to antagonise her' so it's my fault it's ok to wish a sucicdal depressive dead, I must have deserved that right.
So my sister text me after mum told her I don't want to talk about it, I just don't see the point she doesn't listen, why don't we just ignore the problem that's normally what my family do, bury that head in the sand that's our way, that's probably why I have to cut myself to express myself.
So now I'm really anxious my chest is really Tight and my stomach is cramping, I don't know what to do, my family don't know I'm in the middle of an 'episode' and it wouldn't make a difference if they did, my sister doesn't believe in depression and my mum can't handle it, I just wish I could disown the lot of them.
Sorry for wall of text, my boyfriend is at work and I've no one to talk to and feel like I'm losing my mind, I feel totally lost.