Bexmumto3
20-05-12, 21:26
Hiya everyone, I'm Becca a 32yr old mum to 3 little herbets.
I've suffered with panic attacks for the last 7 years, when I think back I've probably suffered with some form of anxiety since I was a child.
I've always managed to eventually pull myself back and get my head straight again to some extent, yes I still suffered with anxiety but it was manageable. I got myself a little job that I absolutely loved, we moved and things were going good.
Very randomly one day I was standing talking to a friend & felt like I was going to pass out, came from no where, I put it down to the lack of food I had had on that day but months later I'm still getting the same symptom.
The symptoms have got gradually worse & basically now they are :
Dizziness, faint feeling every now and then, feel weak, legs hurt, they feel so heavy & feels like i'm walking on sponge, i'm so forgetful, my speech is sometimes strange, my vision goes blurry (like a fog) my left thumb twitches, i randomly twitch, feel like a nodding dog, get strange burning feelings on my skin in random places, i'm constantly tired, visibly shake & feel like i have a pneumatic drill inside me, my head feels like its going to explode, i've got no appetite & lots more but i can't remember what.
I have been going to the dr on and off for months with this dizziness, have had blood tests, ecg, etc and all been ok. We've changed doctor and i'm now being referred to ENt to rule out Meniere's disease but also to a Neurologist as i'm convinced it is MS. The only thing to have come up on my bloods was ESR which is an indicator of inflammation, got to be re-tested in July.
Saw dr again Friday as i've got myself so worked up about this and feel like something is really wrong, of course i burst into tears because of this, i feel like my life is non existent at the moment. She said she feels it is all anxiety related and is also referring me to a councillor and a psychiatrist. She thinks my meds aren't correct (I'm on fluoxetine 40mg) but she said because I will need to be gradually weaned off of these then have 2 weeks without any before trialling new ones, she wants the psychiatrist to do this especially as I had a reaction to 2 i tried initially before settling on the fluoxetine.
I'm also on Cinnarizine 15mg three times a day to help with the dizziness, but i don't feel it's helping at all.
Not really any point to this post, just gives me a chance to get it all out, i feel such a useless mother, useless wife, i've lost my job (i worked in a school with disabled kids which i loved) i can't do much around the house and what i do i have to crawl round on my knees doing as my legs are so weak. I can't go out anywhere as my legs are always so weak.
Yes I have had a stressful time of it, hubby isn't able to work due to his health & my eldest child has ODD so is very difficult to handle but surely this isn't enough to cause this, my family think i'm having a breakdown but I felt fine before that day, now I can't do anything I've got to the point of wanting to end it all, this isn't a life, it's just an existence & a rubbish one at that !!
Oh I don't know, if you got this far, you deserve a medal !!!
I've suffered with panic attacks for the last 7 years, when I think back I've probably suffered with some form of anxiety since I was a child.
I've always managed to eventually pull myself back and get my head straight again to some extent, yes I still suffered with anxiety but it was manageable. I got myself a little job that I absolutely loved, we moved and things were going good.
Very randomly one day I was standing talking to a friend & felt like I was going to pass out, came from no where, I put it down to the lack of food I had had on that day but months later I'm still getting the same symptom.
The symptoms have got gradually worse & basically now they are :
Dizziness, faint feeling every now and then, feel weak, legs hurt, they feel so heavy & feels like i'm walking on sponge, i'm so forgetful, my speech is sometimes strange, my vision goes blurry (like a fog) my left thumb twitches, i randomly twitch, feel like a nodding dog, get strange burning feelings on my skin in random places, i'm constantly tired, visibly shake & feel like i have a pneumatic drill inside me, my head feels like its going to explode, i've got no appetite & lots more but i can't remember what.
I have been going to the dr on and off for months with this dizziness, have had blood tests, ecg, etc and all been ok. We've changed doctor and i'm now being referred to ENt to rule out Meniere's disease but also to a Neurologist as i'm convinced it is MS. The only thing to have come up on my bloods was ESR which is an indicator of inflammation, got to be re-tested in July.
Saw dr again Friday as i've got myself so worked up about this and feel like something is really wrong, of course i burst into tears because of this, i feel like my life is non existent at the moment. She said she feels it is all anxiety related and is also referring me to a councillor and a psychiatrist. She thinks my meds aren't correct (I'm on fluoxetine 40mg) but she said because I will need to be gradually weaned off of these then have 2 weeks without any before trialling new ones, she wants the psychiatrist to do this especially as I had a reaction to 2 i tried initially before settling on the fluoxetine.
I'm also on Cinnarizine 15mg three times a day to help with the dizziness, but i don't feel it's helping at all.
Not really any point to this post, just gives me a chance to get it all out, i feel such a useless mother, useless wife, i've lost my job (i worked in a school with disabled kids which i loved) i can't do much around the house and what i do i have to crawl round on my knees doing as my legs are so weak. I can't go out anywhere as my legs are always so weak.
Yes I have had a stressful time of it, hubby isn't able to work due to his health & my eldest child has ODD so is very difficult to handle but surely this isn't enough to cause this, my family think i'm having a breakdown but I felt fine before that day, now I can't do anything I've got to the point of wanting to end it all, this isn't a life, it's just an existence & a rubbish one at that !!
Oh I don't know, if you got this far, you deserve a medal !!!