Will Loynes
10-07-06, 16:57
Ever since I have had a panic and anxiety disorder I have struggled to work.
Intially I used to persevere, but as the illness got a grip of me it became increasingly impossible. In 2001 I had two really severe attacks that made me collapse in the office, the result of which I was rushed to hospital with a suspected heart attack. I ended up collapsing at least a couple of times a week, leading to days off through exhaution. Work decided to bring in a new policy of with holding sick pay and penalising the bonus scheme that I had. I used to receive heavy phone calls from them in the evening telling me to come into work or else!
Eventually I had a complete breakdown bought on by stress and nervous exhaution, this was followed by severe panic aggrophobia/ claustrophobia, fear of supermarkets, built up places, large crowds, noise.
I have managed to re-gain a lot of lost ground, but one thing I struggle with is to keep going to work, I have that monday morning feeling everyday. I also want to come home as soon as I get to work. This year alone I have had 5 jobs that I havent been able to keep going to, also I have had jobs that Ive been accepted for but havent even started.
The only job I have held down is a part time job, 10 hours a week, in a DVD shop.
Any ideas how I can get my confidence back and get some consistency would be greatly appreciated.
cheers
Will :(
Intially I used to persevere, but as the illness got a grip of me it became increasingly impossible. In 2001 I had two really severe attacks that made me collapse in the office, the result of which I was rushed to hospital with a suspected heart attack. I ended up collapsing at least a couple of times a week, leading to days off through exhaution. Work decided to bring in a new policy of with holding sick pay and penalising the bonus scheme that I had. I used to receive heavy phone calls from them in the evening telling me to come into work or else!
Eventually I had a complete breakdown bought on by stress and nervous exhaution, this was followed by severe panic aggrophobia/ claustrophobia, fear of supermarkets, built up places, large crowds, noise.
I have managed to re-gain a lot of lost ground, but one thing I struggle with is to keep going to work, I have that monday morning feeling everyday. I also want to come home as soon as I get to work. This year alone I have had 5 jobs that I havent been able to keep going to, also I have had jobs that Ive been accepted for but havent even started.
The only job I have held down is a part time job, 10 hours a week, in a DVD shop.
Any ideas how I can get my confidence back and get some consistency would be greatly appreciated.
cheers
Will :(