ChrisChrys
31-05-12, 21:20
This is gonna be quite long, sorry! I deeply appreciate any advise. I felt absolutely fine yesterday, no problem whatsoever. I drank alcohol last night. I woke up in a friends house (there was a lot of smoke in the air, they smoke tobacco and cannabis, I don't smoke cannabis anymore though, because i got to a point where i was convinced that i was becoming psychotic because of the stupid drug, but i've been a lot less exposed to the passive smoke since i stopped, but i was quite exposed to it today, i've nearly been off it for 5 weeks) i didnt eat much at all about 5 hours after i woke up, i ate two sandwiches quite fast.. and i felt this horrible bloated feeling in my stomach.. and suddenly started checking my pulse every few minutes and thinking about my heart, and i felt a tiny bit sick. I then went for a car ride to pick up my other friend from school, i was sitting in the back seat, and then after she put petrol in, the car was saying that she hadn't put any in and that the car was really low on fuel.. I asked her "has this ever happened before" and she said "no, never." So then i started panicking in my head, thinking to myself "oh god, what if the car is going to blow up or something." My left arm had pins and needles in it after that, and there was a slight numb feeling in my arm.. So i was checking my pulse loads and loads because i know one of the symptoms of a heart attack is weakness or a numb feeling in the left arm. I tried so hard to ignore it, and i did for about an hour, i then walked to the shop with one of my friends.. and that's when everything got out of control. Half way towards the shop, i moved my head side to side and i suddenly had slight head rush and a sick feeling, my stomach was burning because i was nervous and scared and then my heart was pounding, and i felt it through my chest, and i was absolutely terrified at that point and there were an unbelievable amount of negative and anxious thoughts going through my head, i said to my friend "have you got your phone" and i was thinking "because i need you to phone an ambulance." I didn't say what i was thinking because there was this very very slight thought in my head telling me that i was just having an anxiety attack, but it just couldn't compare to the panic. She was telling me over and over that i was having a panic attack, but i was totally unconvinced. Then i sat down on a wall for a minute, and did the whole breathing in and out thing, and someone went into the shop for me and got me some water.. after that, my heart slowed down. my friend walked me slowly back to the house and after that i felt tired and drowsy.. I went home, went upstairs, my stomach was acting up a bit.. so i went to go to sleep.. but then i kept jolting awake, which scared me.. so i decided to stay awake, and here i am now.. i just feel really tired and slightly anxious now, and as if i've just walked miles, but i've calmed down a bit.
So my question is.. am i okay?? was this just one of those anxious days for me? One of those random sudden panic attacks??
I had my heart rate checked a few months ago.. and they said everything was normal.. but i still get frightened about it.
sorry for the essay, i'm so embarressed right now.. i just needed some advise.
(the car part, i was just explaining more about my anxiety, it's not just health, but it's health anxiety more than anything)
So my question is.. am i okay?? was this just one of those anxious days for me? One of those random sudden panic attacks??
I had my heart rate checked a few months ago.. and they said everything was normal.. but i still get frightened about it.
sorry for the essay, i'm so embarressed right now.. i just needed some advise.
(the car part, i was just explaining more about my anxiety, it's not just health, but it's health anxiety more than anything)