waunder
02-06-12, 05:53
Hello I am a month in from joining this site and finally feel I can unload a bit of what has brought me here. I grew up with a lot of sadness, anger, violence ,alcohol abuse. I was sexually assaulted at 4 years old so I feel I was destined to take this path from the beginning, not that I am happy about that, and I am no longer resigned to it either. I have finally come to the conclusion that this is something I need to embrace and deal with it. In saying that , it isn't easy , it is still scary but the reasons why are written in my life and because I have made it this far tells me I am a survivor and I may feel terrible things , but I am still here to give love and support to those I love and to those I do not know. I am here to finally see myself as a beautiful person with so much to give and receive and that is something that for most of my life I lost. So please ,when you look at yourselves and see the person you most do not want to be because you are suffering and scared . When you want to wipe out the sight of yourselves in the mirror STOP KEEP LOOKING and say to yourself " no matter what happens, or how low I feel, I will love you through it".:flowers: