Starmist
02-06-12, 21:15
Hi there everyone.
Feeling sad tonight and have no one to talk to so I thought i'd post to you all.
My other half has been at work today until lunch time (we own our own business) he popped home at 1.30 and swiftly told me he was going to pick up a prescription for his mother then meet a friend for a 'quick' drink. He came home at 5.30pm. He reminded me that a friends wedding reception was tonight and he had to make an appearance which I understood.
Before he went out we decided to get our snake Jake out for a run around, I mentioned to him that there was a Reptile Club meeting at the local hotel tonight and 'scaly friends' were invited. He suggested taking Jake and show him off. Of course I said no. He kept pestering me every 5 minutes kept asking me to go. I haven't been out since February and by this time my heart was pounding I was also trying to eat my tea and was feeling sick. I snapped at him, I told him to leave me alone until I had finished eating. Of course when I had finished he was back on it again. I can't explain to him the way I feel, it's like I can't find the words..does anyone feel like this?
He went and got showered and ready to go to the Wedding. While he was upstairs his phone rang and it was his friends he met earlier at the pub asking when he would be back down the pub with them. In my mind my thoughts were racing. He's not going to this wedding, he's going into town and what if he meets someone else? (He had expressed his concerns of our lack of communication and how he was getting stuck in a rut as I am not making any progress). He then told his mate that he was going out tomorrow with his friend in the afternoon and then into town in the evening as they're lighting the beacon for the Jubilee. I am feeling so lonely. I don't want him to have to stay in with me every weekend because I can't go out, but I can't remember the last time we didn't spend more than 4 hours alone and just did stuff round the house like normal people?! I fear I will lose him because of this. I know he loves me unconditionally and I him, but how can we live a life where I am indoors all the time?? *Sigh*...
Sorry for such a long post, I don't even know what my point of it was. Hope you're all having a more enjoyable evening then I am :unsure:
Feeling sad tonight and have no one to talk to so I thought i'd post to you all.
My other half has been at work today until lunch time (we own our own business) he popped home at 1.30 and swiftly told me he was going to pick up a prescription for his mother then meet a friend for a 'quick' drink. He came home at 5.30pm. He reminded me that a friends wedding reception was tonight and he had to make an appearance which I understood.
Before he went out we decided to get our snake Jake out for a run around, I mentioned to him that there was a Reptile Club meeting at the local hotel tonight and 'scaly friends' were invited. He suggested taking Jake and show him off. Of course I said no. He kept pestering me every 5 minutes kept asking me to go. I haven't been out since February and by this time my heart was pounding I was also trying to eat my tea and was feeling sick. I snapped at him, I told him to leave me alone until I had finished eating. Of course when I had finished he was back on it again. I can't explain to him the way I feel, it's like I can't find the words..does anyone feel like this?
He went and got showered and ready to go to the Wedding. While he was upstairs his phone rang and it was his friends he met earlier at the pub asking when he would be back down the pub with them. In my mind my thoughts were racing. He's not going to this wedding, he's going into town and what if he meets someone else? (He had expressed his concerns of our lack of communication and how he was getting stuck in a rut as I am not making any progress). He then told his mate that he was going out tomorrow with his friend in the afternoon and then into town in the evening as they're lighting the beacon for the Jubilee. I am feeling so lonely. I don't want him to have to stay in with me every weekend because I can't go out, but I can't remember the last time we didn't spend more than 4 hours alone and just did stuff round the house like normal people?! I fear I will lose him because of this. I know he loves me unconditionally and I him, but how can we live a life where I am indoors all the time?? *Sigh*...
Sorry for such a long post, I don't even know what my point of it was. Hope you're all having a more enjoyable evening then I am :unsure: