sharonnotts
07-06-12, 00:08
I dont know if im doing this right as this is my first attempt im new here.. iv had attacks for over 16 years im 42, i find it difficult to explain myself as i suffer from concentration problems.
I get most ill when im tired, and i tire easily, no-one around me seems to understand im usually told to pull myself together. difficult when im trying my hardest to breath, and feeling as though im being strangled, its such an aweful scarey thing to have to live with i have 3-4 really bad attacks a week the rest of the time im aware that im breathing. i cant do the normal things like socialising cause i just have attacks. i wake in the night and im hyperventilating, im jut so tired of it.. i was recieving sickness benefit up until 6 months ago when the goverment decided that i wasnt entitled, and im trying to appeal. i tried to explain to them how it effects me daily and how i am when im haveing an attack trying to breath and running back and forth to the toilet because my bowels are running like a chocolate fountain, and how i run round and cant sit still because im now panicing.. im just so fed up iv lost a lot of my benefit money and iv a 2 year old to feed and bills to pay.. why cant the goverment see that ok my disability isnt one you can see. but it effects me every day and i would love to go out hold my head up high and work.. but i justcant do it no one would employ a person who would be calling in sick 3 times a week cause she is hyperventilating.. im making no sense i know,, but u just feel like absolute crap and that they just dont understand x
I get most ill when im tired, and i tire easily, no-one around me seems to understand im usually told to pull myself together. difficult when im trying my hardest to breath, and feeling as though im being strangled, its such an aweful scarey thing to have to live with i have 3-4 really bad attacks a week the rest of the time im aware that im breathing. i cant do the normal things like socialising cause i just have attacks. i wake in the night and im hyperventilating, im jut so tired of it.. i was recieving sickness benefit up until 6 months ago when the goverment decided that i wasnt entitled, and im trying to appeal. i tried to explain to them how it effects me daily and how i am when im haveing an attack trying to breath and running back and forth to the toilet because my bowels are running like a chocolate fountain, and how i run round and cant sit still because im now panicing.. im just so fed up iv lost a lot of my benefit money and iv a 2 year old to feed and bills to pay.. why cant the goverment see that ok my disability isnt one you can see. but it effects me every day and i would love to go out hold my head up high and work.. but i justcant do it no one would employ a person who would be calling in sick 3 times a week cause she is hyperventilating.. im making no sense i know,, but u just feel like absolute crap and that they just dont understand x