hollie24
22-06-12, 22:09
hello just thought i would introduce myself. im Hollie and i have been diagnosed with panic disorder, health anxiety and ocd..
well it all started a week after i had a surgical termination at 13 weeks..
my baby had a neural tube defect which meant he wouldn't of survived outside the womb. i was feeding my 8 month old son on the sofa and it felt like i was caving in on myself and thats when the sheer fear sunk in i thought i was having a heart attackand from that day on ive never felt the same..
i went to the docs and they put it down to me being run down and depressed (i was run down because i returned to work 2 days after my op and was non stop with my 3 children) i didnt grieve for my baby..
the past month though the anxiety has got worse i compulsively check my body for new lumps and bumps.. my hand go blotchy i'm always checking my pulse..
my question is does anybody here feel as though they are permanently spaced out like there not real in this world? my muscles ache all the time is that the anxiety? it sooo frustrating because i've never worried about my health before i'm not an ill person so i'm finding this really difficult to deal with..
thankyou for reading my rant
hollie :-)
well it all started a week after i had a surgical termination at 13 weeks..
my baby had a neural tube defect which meant he wouldn't of survived outside the womb. i was feeding my 8 month old son on the sofa and it felt like i was caving in on myself and thats when the sheer fear sunk in i thought i was having a heart attackand from that day on ive never felt the same..
i went to the docs and they put it down to me being run down and depressed (i was run down because i returned to work 2 days after my op and was non stop with my 3 children) i didnt grieve for my baby..
the past month though the anxiety has got worse i compulsively check my body for new lumps and bumps.. my hand go blotchy i'm always checking my pulse..
my question is does anybody here feel as though they are permanently spaced out like there not real in this world? my muscles ache all the time is that the anxiety? it sooo frustrating because i've never worried about my health before i'm not an ill person so i'm finding this really difficult to deal with..
thankyou for reading my rant
hollie :-)