Estellenoire
23-06-12, 11:40
I'm sure there will be other people that worry about this on here, but I am consumed by thoughts of it. I had never ever heard of SADS until my friend's flatmate died from it in his sleep at uni. He had no known heart problems, and death was his first symptom that anything was wrong. Apparently 12 people a week die from SADS in the UK, 3 of them are under 35, 2/3 of them are males. So when you think about it the risk of it, it is incredibly tiny. Statistically I think you're more likely to die from road accidents.
I can't stop thinking about it though. I'm scared to sleep incase I don't wake up, I'm scared to be on my own incase I collapse, I'm terrified of doing any exercise incase my heart gives out. It doesn't help that I can feel my heart beating all the time, it should be soothing to hear the thump, thump, thump but it's not.
I'm on Citalopram and Propanolol for anxiety at the minute (currently on day 5 and feeling so much worse).
Anyway, my question is, how did you stop worrying about something like this? I don't worry about cancer or brain tumours or anything like that, because for the most part you would know you had it before you died and you could make an attempt to come to terms with it. This would be instantaneous. And I know I wouldn't care once I was dead, but I was enjoying my life. I don't want it to end. There's too much I need to do.
I've now been thinking that if I could kill myself then at least I would go on my own terms, instead of just waiting for it to happen. I would never act on this.
Also, do you think it would be unreasonable to ask to see the out-of-hours GP today? I don't want to go to A&E because they'll laugh me out of the building, even though sometimes it feels like my heart is about to explode.
I can't stop thinking about it though. I'm scared to sleep incase I don't wake up, I'm scared to be on my own incase I collapse, I'm terrified of doing any exercise incase my heart gives out. It doesn't help that I can feel my heart beating all the time, it should be soothing to hear the thump, thump, thump but it's not.
I'm on Citalopram and Propanolol for anxiety at the minute (currently on day 5 and feeling so much worse).
Anyway, my question is, how did you stop worrying about something like this? I don't worry about cancer or brain tumours or anything like that, because for the most part you would know you had it before you died and you could make an attempt to come to terms with it. This would be instantaneous. And I know I wouldn't care once I was dead, but I was enjoying my life. I don't want it to end. There's too much I need to do.
I've now been thinking that if I could kill myself then at least I would go on my own terms, instead of just waiting for it to happen. I would never act on this.
Also, do you think it would be unreasonable to ask to see the out-of-hours GP today? I don't want to go to A&E because they'll laugh me out of the building, even though sometimes it feels like my heart is about to explode.