PITITA
14-07-06, 12:09
I am in a terrible state right now, I feel so STUCK and hopeless :(
Does anyone know how to cope with disossiation, trance-like states? Every single time I go to the supermarket I become totally worked up, because I go into a trance-like state....it really feels like my mind is foggy and clouded, I feel I am just on auto pilot...cannot even make proper conversations, my mind stops functioning. It scares me soo much because I feel that its getting more and more frequent. Im so worried about this, because apparently dissociation is a sign of real mental illness....is insanity knocking on my door??? How can I cope with this? Will this ever go away?
Another thing that worries me is that I think I'm depressed too :( Been thinking of my life and I feel so worthless. I have always been a shy person and lack of confidence has accompanied me all my life. I feel inferior to everyone :( People at work, friends, family...I think I just feel like a weak person. I feel Im a prisoner of myself. :( Sorry to be rambling on... oh that just reminded me of something that happened to me yesterday. There was a lady shopping for dvds at the shop where I work and she was a nice scandinavian lady and she noticed me saying sorry for EVERYTHING! She said to me...why do you say sorry for even things that are NOT your fault?!...for instance we didn't have one dvd on stock and so I said sorry for that...and that made me feel so embarassed and AGAIn inferior...like how useless I really am for not even be able to realise for myself that Im saying sorry for no reason. That just enhanced my feeling of worthlessness because deep inside I feel like I know these things but I just can never get things right...See?! I couln't even write my topic properly....[:I]
" The solution to a problem is right through it..."
Does anyone know how to cope with disossiation, trance-like states? Every single time I go to the supermarket I become totally worked up, because I go into a trance-like state....it really feels like my mind is foggy and clouded, I feel I am just on auto pilot...cannot even make proper conversations, my mind stops functioning. It scares me soo much because I feel that its getting more and more frequent. Im so worried about this, because apparently dissociation is a sign of real mental illness....is insanity knocking on my door??? How can I cope with this? Will this ever go away?
Another thing that worries me is that I think I'm depressed too :( Been thinking of my life and I feel so worthless. I have always been a shy person and lack of confidence has accompanied me all my life. I feel inferior to everyone :( People at work, friends, family...I think I just feel like a weak person. I feel Im a prisoner of myself. :( Sorry to be rambling on... oh that just reminded me of something that happened to me yesterday. There was a lady shopping for dvds at the shop where I work and she was a nice scandinavian lady and she noticed me saying sorry for EVERYTHING! She said to me...why do you say sorry for even things that are NOT your fault?!...for instance we didn't have one dvd on stock and so I said sorry for that...and that made me feel so embarassed and AGAIn inferior...like how useless I really am for not even be able to realise for myself that Im saying sorry for no reason. That just enhanced my feeling of worthlessness because deep inside I feel like I know these things but I just can never get things right...See?! I couln't even write my topic properly....[:I]
" The solution to a problem is right through it..."