sosickoffeelingsick
29-06-12, 22:11
I've lurked around this site for a bit now to try and help me overcome some of my fears. But I've got to the point where I need to post. I'm a HA sufferer, I'm also an anxious, stressy person in general too. I only actually admitted it to my doctor about 6 months ago even though I knew I was suffering for years and my increasing fears were quite irrational. My dad died very quickly of a late diagnosis of eosophagal cancer in 2007, I know this is where it all started. :weep: I hate it. I wish I could shake it off. I was put on citalopram but I ran out and tried to be brave and deal with it without meds. I thought I'd be ok as I had accepted all my aches and pains had disappeared once I was on anxiety meds. I accepted that there had to be some sort of link there.
Now I'm having a random flutter in my chest, right between my breasts..it's not necessarily painful, more of a twinge/spasm and I'm almost 95% sure it's down to my anxiety. I can't shake the feeling off that it could be deadly though, because thats how I think.. it can't be some mild or moderate condition, it will have to be life threatening. So it's a nasty cycle, I think it's worse than what it probably is when in actual fact it may be anxiety itself, yet I'm making it worse by thinking it's worse than what it is.:wacko: causing more anxiety and more flutters.
I never used to be like this, I wish I could go back to where I didn't really worry about my health because the irony is I felt much healthier back then.
Anyway I just wanted to introduce myself, maybe talking will help me a little :shrug:
Forgot to add, I'm the type of HA sufferer where going to my doctor is my worst nightmare.
Now I'm having a random flutter in my chest, right between my breasts..it's not necessarily painful, more of a twinge/spasm and I'm almost 95% sure it's down to my anxiety. I can't shake the feeling off that it could be deadly though, because thats how I think.. it can't be some mild or moderate condition, it will have to be life threatening. So it's a nasty cycle, I think it's worse than what it probably is when in actual fact it may be anxiety itself, yet I'm making it worse by thinking it's worse than what it is.:wacko: causing more anxiety and more flutters.
I never used to be like this, I wish I could go back to where I didn't really worry about my health because the irony is I felt much healthier back then.
Anyway I just wanted to introduce myself, maybe talking will help me a little :shrug:
Forgot to add, I'm the type of HA sufferer where going to my doctor is my worst nightmare.