Kelxx
01-07-12, 02:53
Hello, im a 16 year old girl who suffers from health anxiety.
it has been this way for a long time now, and im starting to feel really defeated.
I hardly go out anymore, i stay in my bed all day and avoid school. im close to getting chucked out.
I feel like no one understands/cares, and i just annoy people. always asking them if they think my symptoms are normal etc, i just want someone to understand.
I just want it all to go away, i want to be my normal self again. i lost my boyfriend, and im loosing most of my friends because im never out, i can't help but push everyone away.
I feel pathetic and i honestly do not want to carry on.
Its not fair, i feel like god is punishing me for something and i don't know what.
Im sorry for the big rant but i had to let it out, lol.
I pray to be happy again :)
it has been this way for a long time now, and im starting to feel really defeated.
I hardly go out anymore, i stay in my bed all day and avoid school. im close to getting chucked out.
I feel like no one understands/cares, and i just annoy people. always asking them if they think my symptoms are normal etc, i just want someone to understand.
I just want it all to go away, i want to be my normal self again. i lost my boyfriend, and im loosing most of my friends because im never out, i can't help but push everyone away.
I feel pathetic and i honestly do not want to carry on.
Its not fair, i feel like god is punishing me for something and i don't know what.
Im sorry for the big rant but i had to let it out, lol.
I pray to be happy again :)