cuteliljocey
17-07-06, 03:15
Hi everyone! Again before I write my post, I would like to thank all of you for all your support, careing and love you all shared with me. I have been on Zoloft for the past 2 month or so and feel much better. BUT!!!!
*chuckles* theres always a but!
Ive been getting freaked out thinking I have CHF <congestive heart failure> and enlarged heart. I always panic over my heart and before put on meds was having masive chest pain and felt it was a heart attack. Im having issues because Im a med tech and a nursing student and it seems the more and more I learn about issues with the heart and other illness's I panic and worrie about it thinking Im going to drop dead. I had a paitient who died of diabetes at the age of 39 and now Im stuck on those three diseases CHF, Enlarged heart and diabetes. Im 21 years old and have my life ahead of me... and IM wasteing it away by worring.. Ive been to the Doctor and have had blood work, ekg, and chest x-ray and all where within normal limits... Why am I still in a panic from time to time? Why am I so affraid of dying? You would think I would be excited to go home... but IM so scared. I think Im scared of how Im going to die. I know very well death is all apart of living. From the day we are born we are dieing. Im a nursing student for goodness gracious... Could that be makeing it worse? Ahhhh *screams* Im so tired, and just want to be normale... yet I ask myself what is normale? Anyway I hope you all have a great day! Take great care and have a great week! Stay safe!
*chuckles* theres always a but!
Ive been getting freaked out thinking I have CHF <congestive heart failure> and enlarged heart. I always panic over my heart and before put on meds was having masive chest pain and felt it was a heart attack. Im having issues because Im a med tech and a nursing student and it seems the more and more I learn about issues with the heart and other illness's I panic and worrie about it thinking Im going to drop dead. I had a paitient who died of diabetes at the age of 39 and now Im stuck on those three diseases CHF, Enlarged heart and diabetes. Im 21 years old and have my life ahead of me... and IM wasteing it away by worring.. Ive been to the Doctor and have had blood work, ekg, and chest x-ray and all where within normal limits... Why am I still in a panic from time to time? Why am I so affraid of dying? You would think I would be excited to go home... but IM so scared. I think Im scared of how Im going to die. I know very well death is all apart of living. From the day we are born we are dieing. Im a nursing student for goodness gracious... Could that be makeing it worse? Ahhhh *screams* Im so tired, and just want to be normale... yet I ask myself what is normale? Anyway I hope you all have a great day! Take great care and have a great week! Stay safe!