R.Barratt
04-07-12, 22:04
hello people :)
i have lived on my own since i was 16 so for over a year now. but even though i escped my mother and her cruelty i still lived under her rules as i was so used to them.
i was used to her ocd so i constantly cleaned every where which caused high anxiety for myself as i could never relax as i always thought i hadnt done enough. i also only ate junk food and constantly put myself down as my mother constantly did this.
Now i am through a stage in my depression where i can say i dont like something but it not be the end of the world instead i can logically ask myself how can i change that?
so at the minute i am on a course, volunteering, trying to loose weight and for me the most exciting thing of all is when i turn 18 i am getting a big tattoo of a peacock feather on my leg. which i know my mother will hate but its about me. it is for my grandad as he was a bird watcher and it also sybolises how i am become an individual who is proud of herself xxxx
i have lived on my own since i was 16 so for over a year now. but even though i escped my mother and her cruelty i still lived under her rules as i was so used to them.
i was used to her ocd so i constantly cleaned every where which caused high anxiety for myself as i could never relax as i always thought i hadnt done enough. i also only ate junk food and constantly put myself down as my mother constantly did this.
Now i am through a stage in my depression where i can say i dont like something but it not be the end of the world instead i can logically ask myself how can i change that?
so at the minute i am on a course, volunteering, trying to loose weight and for me the most exciting thing of all is when i turn 18 i am getting a big tattoo of a peacock feather on my leg. which i know my mother will hate but its about me. it is for my grandad as he was a bird watcher and it also sybolises how i am become an individual who is proud of herself xxxx