lett20
09-07-12, 20:16
Hi , I'm collette 28 year old female I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for about 10 years now I could go months at a time and feel fine but would then have a bad couple of weeks ...now since end April I have been suffering really badly with GAD , Health anxiety and panic so much so that myself and my 4 year old daughter had to move in with my mum .
Everyday has been a struggle not only do I have all the normal anxiety symptoms such as palpatations , dizziness , lightheaded , chest pain ect I am also suffering with very bad depersonalization ( well I think its that I feel like I'm trapped inside my head , like I'm not real like I'm living in a dream and just want to shout for help or to wake up ) I feel like I don't really know who I am anymore .
The doctors changed my.meds about 8 weeks ago and put me on venlafaxine and I was also seeing a psychologist but that hasn't helped , eveyday is just a struggle to get out of bed as I can't handle the way I feel , my family were quite supportive to start off with but today I found out that they have been talking about me behind my back .. my mum attended a weekly doctors apt with me today the doctor asked how the last week had been I replied that I was pleased with myself as the past 4 days I had made am effort to go out with my dad even if it was just around to his .. my mum then replied that her and my sisters thought different and they felt that I'm not making an effort and don't want to get better .. that has upset me more than they could imagine as more than anything I want my life back and to be able to be a proper mum . I feel like I am so alone now and don't know what to do .. please can somebody tell me if its right to feel this bad and can it get better x
Everyday has been a struggle not only do I have all the normal anxiety symptoms such as palpatations , dizziness , lightheaded , chest pain ect I am also suffering with very bad depersonalization ( well I think its that I feel like I'm trapped inside my head , like I'm not real like I'm living in a dream and just want to shout for help or to wake up ) I feel like I don't really know who I am anymore .
The doctors changed my.meds about 8 weeks ago and put me on venlafaxine and I was also seeing a psychologist but that hasn't helped , eveyday is just a struggle to get out of bed as I can't handle the way I feel , my family were quite supportive to start off with but today I found out that they have been talking about me behind my back .. my mum attended a weekly doctors apt with me today the doctor asked how the last week had been I replied that I was pleased with myself as the past 4 days I had made am effort to go out with my dad even if it was just around to his .. my mum then replied that her and my sisters thought different and they felt that I'm not making an effort and don't want to get better .. that has upset me more than they could imagine as more than anything I want my life back and to be able to be a proper mum . I feel like I am so alone now and don't know what to do .. please can somebody tell me if its right to feel this bad and can it get better x