View Full Version : Getting Fed Up Now!
Title says it all :mad:. My symptoms have been up, down and all over the place these past few weeks and I'm fed up with it. I go from feeling healthy, positive and symptom free one day to feeling like I'm about to die the next. Yesterday for example was a good day - symptom free and I felt great..... however!!! During the night I woke up with a major headache, eye pain and a feeling of numbness down my right side (second time this week this has happened). I was scared to get out of bed because I didn't think I would be able to stand up. I could though and once I'd walked around and took some paracetamol I felt better and went back to bed. I've woke up today though and feel like crap! I have a mild, throbbing headache and my right side feels like it doesn't belong to me - no numbness or weakness - just a really odd feeling! I feel exhausted and could just cry. I know tomorrow might be better and that's good but I can't live my life like this. On days like this my mind works overtime and thinks anxiety can't possibly make me feel like this. Sorry guys - just needed to rant... when does it all end eh :unsure: xx
I feel for u :-( Iv been the same this week :-( Up then down grrr I h8 it. From wot ur explaining about feel like ur right side isnt urs it sounds like depersonalisation. Read up on it x
Thanks Sammie - my emotions are all over the place. On good days I don't think about tumours, strokes (my current fears :doh:) but today I'm like 'ok - this really doesn't feel right'! I just read a response post of yours and I've spent the last few minutes touching my nose with my finger as fast as I can.... which I can do! I'm at work and have also been running up/down the stairs, squatting and hopping on one leg. It's ridiculous but my thinking is that if I can do those things I don't have a tumour and I haven't had a stroke! It's complete madness! My main concern is that my symptoms are ALWAYs on my right side and my headache is always in the same spot - again my right side. Grrrrrrrr! xx
Its true though hun. If we had tumours or nasty things wrong with us then we wouldn't have good co coordination. Iv actually ended coming to bed cos I feel like crap :-( my heads killing AGAIN :'( X
Oh man, tell me about it. I'm on a 3 or 4 week kick of emotional roller coasters. It's exhausting and makes me feel badly for my fiance because I am all over the place! It will pass in time. Something interesting my therapist told me was that I am probably being triggered by things and don't even realize it, which is making me feel so out of control. Pay close attention to what happens when you feel a mood change and you may notice a triggering event.
I have no idea what's triggering it! I went into meltdown a few months ago by too much googling (haven't done it since) and I was a complete nervous wreck. By doing that I know about illnesses/diseases I've no right knowing about - that knowledge sticks with you. I know I've put my mind, body through an unbelievable amount of stress and I have read it takes a long time for an anxious mind/body to return to normal. Maybe that's it! I'm nowhere near as bad as I was but I still get days when I think 'WTF' :huh:! I am going to start paying more attention to how I feel and why I'm feeling it though - thanks for that.
Sammie; I sympathise honey. I went for a long walk during my lunch and my headache has eased a little - still there though. I have so much work to do this afternoon and I don't think my little brain cell can handle it. Roll on 5pm! Hope you feel better. xx
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