nikkikb
17-07-12, 16:33
Hi All,
Haven't been on here for a while. My HA settled down for a couple of years but for the last 18 months it has been slowly returning (breast cancer scare, STD worries, dementia fear in last 12 months).
Nearly two months ago I was at a party and a few drinks had been taken. I fell over (don't know if I tripped or just fell) but after that I started worrying again. I had the ALS/MND fear about 4.5 years ago (someone I know was diagnosed with it) and ti was horrible but after a trip to the neuro I started to get past it and thought it would never bother me again. Sadly I was wrong. Since the falling incident I have been noticing differences in my hands, feet, arms and legs and have been obsessively checking every day. The anxiety has been getting worse and worse. I saw the GP on Friday who said MND at my age is so so rare (I am 33) and I didn't look like I had it (he did not do any strength tests though). I pointed out a funny couple of dents in my foot and he said no it doesn't present like that. He said it was a disease of the motor system and atrophy happened due to lack of use when the muscle stopped working. He basically said just don't worry about it.
Since then my right leg (the one with the dents in the foot) feels weak and like it might buckle at any time. I feel like I am limping a bit but not all the time. There is a strange feeling in my leg - almost like a nervous feeling in it if that makes sense! It looks slightly thinner than the other and there is a 2cm difference just above the knee. I have tried some strength tests and I can do them all but it does not stop the worrying.
I am freaking out massively :weep:. Seeing my counsellor tonight and have another GP appt for Friday to say how worried I am. I really thought I would never be back here with this particular worry. Last time I got really depressed. I have never tried anti-ds and I know the GP will want to put me on them but I am scared of the effect long and short term.
Haven't been on here for a while. My HA settled down for a couple of years but for the last 18 months it has been slowly returning (breast cancer scare, STD worries, dementia fear in last 12 months).
Nearly two months ago I was at a party and a few drinks had been taken. I fell over (don't know if I tripped or just fell) but after that I started worrying again. I had the ALS/MND fear about 4.5 years ago (someone I know was diagnosed with it) and ti was horrible but after a trip to the neuro I started to get past it and thought it would never bother me again. Sadly I was wrong. Since the falling incident I have been noticing differences in my hands, feet, arms and legs and have been obsessively checking every day. The anxiety has been getting worse and worse. I saw the GP on Friday who said MND at my age is so so rare (I am 33) and I didn't look like I had it (he did not do any strength tests though). I pointed out a funny couple of dents in my foot and he said no it doesn't present like that. He said it was a disease of the motor system and atrophy happened due to lack of use when the muscle stopped working. He basically said just don't worry about it.
Since then my right leg (the one with the dents in the foot) feels weak and like it might buckle at any time. I feel like I am limping a bit but not all the time. There is a strange feeling in my leg - almost like a nervous feeling in it if that makes sense! It looks slightly thinner than the other and there is a 2cm difference just above the knee. I have tried some strength tests and I can do them all but it does not stop the worrying.
I am freaking out massively :weep:. Seeing my counsellor tonight and have another GP appt for Friday to say how worried I am. I really thought I would never be back here with this particular worry. Last time I got really depressed. I have never tried anti-ds and I know the GP will want to put me on them but I am scared of the effect long and short term.