ascend100
18-07-12, 19:19
Was put on Seroxat 16 years for social anxiety. Doctor tried at my request to take me off them about 5 years ago from 30 mg to 0 in 3 months. Thay resulted in me becoming apathetic towards people around me, intolerant, fearful and anxious. Horrible. Gave up college course i was doing really well on.
Went back on in tears some months later reluctantly but insisted only 20mg this time. Having stopped smoking and getting that in order felt it was time on 6th Feb this year to decrease Seroxat by 5mg. Did get teary and feel bit odd and out of place for a while a good time into reducing but by April started to feel better so cruised like that for a while :)
Sadly had begun smoking again :( Smoking has a very adverse affect on me physically. On 6th of June reduced down to 10mg Seroxat that was ok for a while although i noticed i was not as keen to socialise, but having said that was still seeing friends quite regularly, in spite of reservations about them and whether they were actually my kind of people. But 2 weeks ago had no choice but to stop ciggerettes again. The cravings were tougher, needless to say. First week woke up abruptly as you some times do when you first stop nicotine but it wasn't helped by neighbours arguing about 3.30 am. Got really annoyed and went up. It happened again 4 days or so later and went up and got really angry and ended up calling police.
Thereafter a young lad who frequently tries to intimidate people in my community took a renewed fixation on me much like one he had some 7 years ago, when i believe i last tried to get off seroxat interestingly enough which makes me think i must emit a vulnerable or victim energy when so anxious! Not going into why needless to say i have done him no wrong. BUT threatened by someone WHO the community and even I usually see more as a pest rattled me to say the least. So anger has been replaced by panic attacks and waves of fear and anxiety. Kinda working best i can on that as I know that is something i seriously don't need corroding at my all ready vulnerable personality.
I understand that i am making a bigger thing out of things and i am letting fear distort common sense from reigning in my life. Most of all trying to remember that these feelings are not so much because of external goings on half as much as internal goings on within me.
Found out about this place because my Father has always said if something scares you find out about it more. Being informed can lessen the fear so having read my seroxat leaflet for the first time in many many years i thought hmmm google this and this forum was mentioned there :)
Went back on in tears some months later reluctantly but insisted only 20mg this time. Having stopped smoking and getting that in order felt it was time on 6th Feb this year to decrease Seroxat by 5mg. Did get teary and feel bit odd and out of place for a while a good time into reducing but by April started to feel better so cruised like that for a while :)
Sadly had begun smoking again :( Smoking has a very adverse affect on me physically. On 6th of June reduced down to 10mg Seroxat that was ok for a while although i noticed i was not as keen to socialise, but having said that was still seeing friends quite regularly, in spite of reservations about them and whether they were actually my kind of people. But 2 weeks ago had no choice but to stop ciggerettes again. The cravings were tougher, needless to say. First week woke up abruptly as you some times do when you first stop nicotine but it wasn't helped by neighbours arguing about 3.30 am. Got really annoyed and went up. It happened again 4 days or so later and went up and got really angry and ended up calling police.
Thereafter a young lad who frequently tries to intimidate people in my community took a renewed fixation on me much like one he had some 7 years ago, when i believe i last tried to get off seroxat interestingly enough which makes me think i must emit a vulnerable or victim energy when so anxious! Not going into why needless to say i have done him no wrong. BUT threatened by someone WHO the community and even I usually see more as a pest rattled me to say the least. So anger has been replaced by panic attacks and waves of fear and anxiety. Kinda working best i can on that as I know that is something i seriously don't need corroding at my all ready vulnerable personality.
I understand that i am making a bigger thing out of things and i am letting fear distort common sense from reigning in my life. Most of all trying to remember that these feelings are not so much because of external goings on half as much as internal goings on within me.
Found out about this place because my Father has always said if something scares you find out about it more. Being informed can lessen the fear so having read my seroxat leaflet for the first time in many many years i thought hmmm google this and this forum was mentioned there :)