Worrier01
18-07-12, 23:08
Hey NMP Peeps
Wasnt sure where to put this ;/
Im 19 now and am just finishing 6th Form here in England.
Throughout Secondary school i was bullied quite alot for 5 years, at the time i was wondering why people were bullying me etc and even got a nasty comment when my dad died.
I realise now wasnt the cleanest person so to speak , didnt look after myself well all the time and had greasy hair sometimes, partially yellow teeth and prob stunk too and still is in effect (but not as bad) today
I keep telling myself it is wrong and that i should look after myself etc but thoughts of the past and other stupid things distract me from it and i go back into my depressed state.
I have done quite a few stupid things in my past like breaking my perfectly working Ipod 2G 8GB for no reason because i got bored.
Things like that i really should get over and which ive already learnt from and other places ive wasted money and made mistakes etc
But i keep thinking these thoughts every day and when they creep into my mind i cant focus on anything else and i struggle to sleep at night often because these thoughts are in my head
Doesnt help that ive got the added pressure of looking for a job from my mum , i mean i know everyone goes through looking for a job but with all these things before hand it just depresses me with other thoughts
Please help
Cheers
A
Wasnt sure where to put this ;/
Im 19 now and am just finishing 6th Form here in England.
Throughout Secondary school i was bullied quite alot for 5 years, at the time i was wondering why people were bullying me etc and even got a nasty comment when my dad died.
I realise now wasnt the cleanest person so to speak , didnt look after myself well all the time and had greasy hair sometimes, partially yellow teeth and prob stunk too and still is in effect (but not as bad) today
I keep telling myself it is wrong and that i should look after myself etc but thoughts of the past and other stupid things distract me from it and i go back into my depressed state.
I have done quite a few stupid things in my past like breaking my perfectly working Ipod 2G 8GB for no reason because i got bored.
Things like that i really should get over and which ive already learnt from and other places ive wasted money and made mistakes etc
But i keep thinking these thoughts every day and when they creep into my mind i cant focus on anything else and i struggle to sleep at night often because these thoughts are in my head
Doesnt help that ive got the added pressure of looking for a job from my mum , i mean i know everyone goes through looking for a job but with all these things before hand it just depresses me with other thoughts
Please help
Cheers
A