mrsfay
25-07-12, 14:29
It's taken a lot of courage to do this, I am sure you will all relate being in the same boat.
I had a bad year in 2008 which resulted in me developing anxiety. I managed to keep it under control for 3 years up until I had my beautiful daughter who is now one!
I feel like now my anxiety is my main personality trait, that it decides for me what I do or dont do, how I feel and act etc. There is no barrier between an irrational thought of mine and blowing it way out of proportion to the point of being up all night scared that I am seriously ill and am going to leave my daughter.
I feel like the only way I am going to get better is to face my fears and and allow myself to accept that I have an anxiety problem. So I am now on beta blockers and undergoing liver and thyroid tests (my mum had thyroid problems and suffers from depression, alcoholism etc) and have joined this thread so I know that there are people out there just like me, that I am not on my own or going crazy.
I am 24 and USUALLY on the outside, to everyone other then my husband, I am confident, popular and up for anything. I take pride in my appearance and I love travelling and being a mum. On the inside im fighting the urge to freak out and have a panic attack all the time, my stomach is constantly in knots and I am constantly blowing things way out of proportion, the simplest of comment someone has made, the slightest bit of pain in my body, and I am so tired of it. I desperately do not want to end up like my mum so I suppose the last couple of days have been the steps I've needed to take to get better, rather than just living alongside my anxiety.
Would be great to hear some of your stories x
I had a bad year in 2008 which resulted in me developing anxiety. I managed to keep it under control for 3 years up until I had my beautiful daughter who is now one!
I feel like now my anxiety is my main personality trait, that it decides for me what I do or dont do, how I feel and act etc. There is no barrier between an irrational thought of mine and blowing it way out of proportion to the point of being up all night scared that I am seriously ill and am going to leave my daughter.
I feel like the only way I am going to get better is to face my fears and and allow myself to accept that I have an anxiety problem. So I am now on beta blockers and undergoing liver and thyroid tests (my mum had thyroid problems and suffers from depression, alcoholism etc) and have joined this thread so I know that there are people out there just like me, that I am not on my own or going crazy.
I am 24 and USUALLY on the outside, to everyone other then my husband, I am confident, popular and up for anything. I take pride in my appearance and I love travelling and being a mum. On the inside im fighting the urge to freak out and have a panic attack all the time, my stomach is constantly in knots and I am constantly blowing things way out of proportion, the simplest of comment someone has made, the slightest bit of pain in my body, and I am so tired of it. I desperately do not want to end up like my mum so I suppose the last couple of days have been the steps I've needed to take to get better, rather than just living alongside my anxiety.
Would be great to hear some of your stories x