Mand1978
08-08-12, 09:25
Hi,
I thought I would introduce myself as I'm new here and have just posted on the Citalopram forum.
I'm a 33 year old female and have suffered from anxiety/depression/negative body image really from my teens, although it didn't present itself as a real problem until my marriage started to fall apart about 6 years ago.
I started to be very strict about my diet, following weight watchers until my weight dropped drastically low. The more unhappy I felt the more I despised how I looked and the more I needed to control my eating. I was then referred for counselling and put on Citalopram, but didn't really continue with either for that long as my marriage then ended and I stopped taking the tablets as I didn't feel there was any point in getting better.
I then started Citalopram about 6 months later but again only lasted about a month on them before I stopped taking them.
I'm a keen gym goer and go 5-6 days a week, and although I had started putting on a little weight from when I was very low, I have got to the stage where calorie counting is again ruling my life and I am again losing weight (although to me I still don't look good enough).
I also sugger from cleaning OCD and rituals about times of eating/what I eat/not being able to eat in publc etc.
Although I'm finding life on Citalopram really tough 2 weeks in, I'm committed to sticking to it to get better. I'm anxious about any weight gain from the meds and I have been feeling so rubbish that I haven't been able to work out as much, which again has caused my anxiety to worsen, but I had a good gym session last night and feel brighter this morning.
I just really want to be able to have a relationship again (I've been single for 3 years) and to be happy. I can't remember the last time I was really, truly happy :o(
I thought I would introduce myself as I'm new here and have just posted on the Citalopram forum.
I'm a 33 year old female and have suffered from anxiety/depression/negative body image really from my teens, although it didn't present itself as a real problem until my marriage started to fall apart about 6 years ago.
I started to be very strict about my diet, following weight watchers until my weight dropped drastically low. The more unhappy I felt the more I despised how I looked and the more I needed to control my eating. I was then referred for counselling and put on Citalopram, but didn't really continue with either for that long as my marriage then ended and I stopped taking the tablets as I didn't feel there was any point in getting better.
I then started Citalopram about 6 months later but again only lasted about a month on them before I stopped taking them.
I'm a keen gym goer and go 5-6 days a week, and although I had started putting on a little weight from when I was very low, I have got to the stage where calorie counting is again ruling my life and I am again losing weight (although to me I still don't look good enough).
I also sugger from cleaning OCD and rituals about times of eating/what I eat/not being able to eat in publc etc.
Although I'm finding life on Citalopram really tough 2 weeks in, I'm committed to sticking to it to get better. I'm anxious about any weight gain from the meds and I have been feeling so rubbish that I haven't been able to work out as much, which again has caused my anxiety to worsen, but I had a good gym session last night and feel brighter this morning.
I just really want to be able to have a relationship again (I've been single for 3 years) and to be happy. I can't remember the last time I was really, truly happy :o(