Smiffy3594
10-08-12, 21:45
I managed to fly to Spain to see parents (lots of attacks on way to airport) helped having my sister fly with me - went to local supermarket & shops here in spain and was fine
Tonight the mention of going out to eat set me off - we went to the restaurant felt extremely anxious in the car got to the restaurant ordered drinks managed to sip at it, ordered food but could only pick at it (as my stomach was churning & the feeling that I urgently needed the toilet - if you guys get the drift) not even a quarter of my meal was eaten (& I love my food when at home) I couldn't even bring myself to smoke my sister kept asking if I wanted to go outside for a smoke but all I could think about was my if I smoke it's going to make my stomach worse & I will need to run to the loo & didn't want to do anything that was gonna contribute
My family know I have panic attacks but don't think they realised exactly how it affects me - they do now ! And they were supportive but it didn't help how I was feeling - as soon as we got back to mum & dads house stomach was fine !! & I was chuffing away on a cigarette
I feel really really frustrated with myself - I made the plane trip & got thru that even with many attacks and feeling the same way as in the restaurant -why couldnt I get thru it at the restaurant & enjoy my meal :weep: feel like I ruined my families meal even though they say I didn't :weep:
Tonight the mention of going out to eat set me off - we went to the restaurant felt extremely anxious in the car got to the restaurant ordered drinks managed to sip at it, ordered food but could only pick at it (as my stomach was churning & the feeling that I urgently needed the toilet - if you guys get the drift) not even a quarter of my meal was eaten (& I love my food when at home) I couldn't even bring myself to smoke my sister kept asking if I wanted to go outside for a smoke but all I could think about was my if I smoke it's going to make my stomach worse & I will need to run to the loo & didn't want to do anything that was gonna contribute
My family know I have panic attacks but don't think they realised exactly how it affects me - they do now ! And they were supportive but it didn't help how I was feeling - as soon as we got back to mum & dads house stomach was fine !! & I was chuffing away on a cigarette
I feel really really frustrated with myself - I made the plane trip & got thru that even with many attacks and feeling the same way as in the restaurant -why couldnt I get thru it at the restaurant & enjoy my meal :weep: feel like I ruined my families meal even though they say I didn't :weep: