hollymuso
17-08-12, 01:07
Hi everyone! I used to use this site daily! I had no life I believed the world would end and I would die etc...I couldn't go out travel never smiled. Was in hell!! Life didn't seem worth living I won't go into why I was here in first place all that matters is I made myself better and even posted a success story which meant so much. My life has been great now. I appriciate it in such a wonderful way however just recently I've got myself all worked up that I am gonna get cancer or that I have lung cancer!! I've experienced a lot of the early symptoms and have smoked for 11 years properly. Few dabbles before then...bit I'm only 25 : l I've had an ex who's dad died of cancer...thats when I was here before.. and I've had health probs and a scare once before because of changed cells in my cervics..I now know it was something cause by the same ex cheating lots.!! I am experiencing a. It of a dry cough( occasional sneezing) I've had a shoulder pain for bout 2 or3 months its on top.on the bone and feels like a bruise??? I have. Web googling and I'd imagine I'm bringing a lot of symptom on by stress. I get bad back but pretty much always have! My throat is dry and sore and only recently I've noticed muscle twinge and sickening aches ..my dad says I'm stupid because I've been doing decorating lately and it could have been tiredness from that but should I be worried? I've started not sleeping and crying a lot ..I'm now worried I'm losing weight but I thinly I.just bring more active and not eating as much!! See logically I think I'm being ridiculous but I know ppl.who smoked from you.g age at more risk and you can get it at 25!! I wanna go doctor but if it is just me bring unaware or not wanting to admit its anxiety relapse then ill look silly! Life has been so good I'm so afraid to lose it...I'm so scared I'm gonna die just as life gets normal.! I've had it shit bit just graduated and terrified please can anyone help.
! Sorry for essay bit wanted to explain properly :-( x
---------- Post added at 01:03 ---------- Previous post was at 01:00 ----------
Forgot to say ...the shoulder pain is when I lift ARM..or change from 1 st to 2nd gear when driving if that makes sense .. I would imagine over three months if it was cancer it would have got worse not better?! X
---------- Post added at 01:07 ---------- Previous post was at 01:03 ----------
And I've just checked and I've lost about three pounds in weight ...can't say one been trying just been more active I suppose and doing sit UPS ..bur only .last Wednesday I.had lost 2 but went to dinner and put them back on..could that be right that they've gone again in a week? X I'm so sorry but anyone reading can hopefully see I need help! X
! Sorry for essay bit wanted to explain properly :-( x
---------- Post added at 01:03 ---------- Previous post was at 01:00 ----------
Forgot to say ...the shoulder pain is when I lift ARM..or change from 1 st to 2nd gear when driving if that makes sense .. I would imagine over three months if it was cancer it would have got worse not better?! X
---------- Post added at 01:07 ---------- Previous post was at 01:03 ----------
And I've just checked and I've lost about three pounds in weight ...can't say one been trying just been more active I suppose and doing sit UPS ..bur only .last Wednesday I.had lost 2 but went to dinner and put them back on..could that be right that they've gone again in a week? X I'm so sorry but anyone reading can hopefully see I need help! X