dez
18-08-12, 13:53
Hye,
This is my first post, but I've enjoyed reading a few posts by other like minded people and it's encouraging to see I'm not alone in feeling the way I do.
2 years ago I went through, what I can only describe as a breakdown and didn't go to work for about 5 months. It was the worst time of my life. I got over it witht he help of diazapam and, I think Citralopam. The reason I say think is because I'm not sure it worked for me at the time, but I was feeling sooooooo bad it may have had an effect and I just focused on the initial bad phase. I totall y went back to normal afterwards but have recently had a few truamatic events and went straight back to feeling the way I did before.
THis time I've stayed at work though, as I knew that made me worse being off and worrying about how I would ever get back.
It's been about 3 months since it started again. First of all I couldn't sleep and only got a few hours on a week. Then came the old feeling of not being part of the normal world again and complete anxiety.
I've been taking diazapam for about 3 months (2mg 3 times a day) - they did work at first but I've tried to stop them and smoking (which I started again due to the anxiety) and I went straight back to square one. I've now just started (day 5) on escitlopram and am feeling the worst I've felt yet. I'm scared to even go to the shops in case it freaks me out.
The thing that gets to me most is I can't do the stuff I used to do with my 5 year old daughter and it kills me. I just want back to were I was 4 months ago. Fit, happy, training for a marathon, non-smoking, lovig father with no worries.
This is my first post, but I've enjoyed reading a few posts by other like minded people and it's encouraging to see I'm not alone in feeling the way I do.
2 years ago I went through, what I can only describe as a breakdown and didn't go to work for about 5 months. It was the worst time of my life. I got over it witht he help of diazapam and, I think Citralopam. The reason I say think is because I'm not sure it worked for me at the time, but I was feeling sooooooo bad it may have had an effect and I just focused on the initial bad phase. I totall y went back to normal afterwards but have recently had a few truamatic events and went straight back to feeling the way I did before.
THis time I've stayed at work though, as I knew that made me worse being off and worrying about how I would ever get back.
It's been about 3 months since it started again. First of all I couldn't sleep and only got a few hours on a week. Then came the old feeling of not being part of the normal world again and complete anxiety.
I've been taking diazapam for about 3 months (2mg 3 times a day) - they did work at first but I've tried to stop them and smoking (which I started again due to the anxiety) and I went straight back to square one. I've now just started (day 5) on escitlopram and am feeling the worst I've felt yet. I'm scared to even go to the shops in case it freaks me out.
The thing that gets to me most is I can't do the stuff I used to do with my 5 year old daughter and it kills me. I just want back to were I was 4 months ago. Fit, happy, training for a marathon, non-smoking, lovig father with no worries.