Anxiety Jim
26-08-12, 23:46
Hi,
I haven't been on here since Friday I think, or possibly Saturday morning, and I thought I'd made a miraculous recovery after 2 or 3 weeks or utter panic. But alas I have not, I went to my sisters wedding yesterday and I managed to calm my self down from 3 or 4 panic attacks before they fully got going. And I only thought I was going to die a few times, and generally it was the least anxious day I've had for 3 weeks.
But today I've gone back into full blown panic mode, all of my cancer and DVT fears are back, I've been trying everything to calm myself down, from trying to concentrate of TV or a video game, to sitting in silence concentrating on breathing, to going for a walk, but nothing is working.
I'm certain I've not got long left again, and it's so scary because there's so much I want to do with my life. And I'm scared when I go back to see my GP on Thursday he's going to drop a bombshell about a possible serious cause for my low calcium levels.
I wish there was something I could do that would mean I knew I was OK, and then I could get back to trying to enjoy my life and make something of it.
:-(
I haven't been on here since Friday I think, or possibly Saturday morning, and I thought I'd made a miraculous recovery after 2 or 3 weeks or utter panic. But alas I have not, I went to my sisters wedding yesterday and I managed to calm my self down from 3 or 4 panic attacks before they fully got going. And I only thought I was going to die a few times, and generally it was the least anxious day I've had for 3 weeks.
But today I've gone back into full blown panic mode, all of my cancer and DVT fears are back, I've been trying everything to calm myself down, from trying to concentrate of TV or a video game, to sitting in silence concentrating on breathing, to going for a walk, but nothing is working.
I'm certain I've not got long left again, and it's so scary because there's so much I want to do with my life. And I'm scared when I go back to see my GP on Thursday he's going to drop a bombshell about a possible serious cause for my low calcium levels.
I wish there was something I could do that would mean I knew I was OK, and then I could get back to trying to enjoy my life and make something of it.
:-(