pinkcherryhearts
27-08-12, 18:06
Hi
everyday I seem to be getting more and more depressed, I feel like I am stuck in a rut and there is no light at the end of the tunnel, I left university in 2009 with a degree in textiles, since then I have no had a decent job and I have spent most of the time being unemployed due to anxiety, the only jobs I get are rubbish ones which I end up leaving because my panic attacks start again, I can't afford to live on benefits because I have so much debt left from university and I spend my days worrying about what my future is going to be like, I don't know how to turn my life around, I have no confidence and just end up sitting at home all day crying and feeling suicidal, I don't know how to cope with the lack of prospects I have, I still live at home because I can't afford my own place, everyone else I know have full time jobs and are getting married with children and I feel I am being left behind, I apply for jobs everyday but never hear back, I hate it, I feel useless and not part of society. The job centre isn't very helpful, I volunteer at a charity shop but I am struggling to pay the bills, I have no social life and all my friends have deserted me to get on with their perfect lives. My boyfriend left me, I feel so lonely, I am always worrying about how I am going to look after my parents because they are getting old and I can't even afford to give my dad proper rent, I don't know what to do, I feel I have lost everything and have no hope for the future :weep:
everyday I seem to be getting more and more depressed, I feel like I am stuck in a rut and there is no light at the end of the tunnel, I left university in 2009 with a degree in textiles, since then I have no had a decent job and I have spent most of the time being unemployed due to anxiety, the only jobs I get are rubbish ones which I end up leaving because my panic attacks start again, I can't afford to live on benefits because I have so much debt left from university and I spend my days worrying about what my future is going to be like, I don't know how to turn my life around, I have no confidence and just end up sitting at home all day crying and feeling suicidal, I don't know how to cope with the lack of prospects I have, I still live at home because I can't afford my own place, everyone else I know have full time jobs and are getting married with children and I feel I am being left behind, I apply for jobs everyday but never hear back, I hate it, I feel useless and not part of society. The job centre isn't very helpful, I volunteer at a charity shop but I am struggling to pay the bills, I have no social life and all my friends have deserted me to get on with their perfect lives. My boyfriend left me, I feel so lonely, I am always worrying about how I am going to look after my parents because they are getting old and I can't even afford to give my dad proper rent, I don't know what to do, I feel I have lost everything and have no hope for the future :weep: