Iggy131313
28-08-12, 11:07
ok guys, I really need some advice here, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO...
6 weeks on 20mg citalopram
first 4 weeks pure unbearable hell, anxiety like I have NEVER felt before constant crying if I could (sometimes the anxiety was too high to allow me to feel enough to cry) severe agitation, severe confusion, depersonalisation, sweating buckets teeth clenching fear and dread.
weeks 5 and 6 - moderate anxiety but still worse than I have EVER felt off meds, constant crying and desperation, less confusion and deperonalisation, increase in headaches terrible depression (which I have never suffered from in my life)
so Dr Nasty told me to come off the meds and she would put me on something else but Im too scared and Ive heard that they can take longer than that to work so agreed to cut down to 10mg
week 7 on 10mg - anxiety alot better - prob mild but still coming on for NO REASON at all, milder agitation but still there, still getting zings of pain in my brain and occasional brain heat happening in various areas on my brain. Still very depressed and crying at anything, only feel safe when Im in the bedroom alone.
But Im so scared that this anxiety is now MY LEARNED anxiety that cit has taught me to expect and to fear. I know the gp wants me to come off and try something else but I cant put myself through this again, I really cant, not when my origional complaint was so mild being 1 panic attack every couple of years.
So what do I do next? should I cut down to 5mg a day and see if my anxiety gets better still therefore I should know if its the cit still in my system making me feel like this and then stop altogether and try to deal with my anxiety through cbt
Or should I continue to take the 10mg for another week or so and see if I improve?
Or should I start taking 20 again now Ive had a week of 10?
The dr is no help at all and Im so confused and lost and I dont know what to do for the best,
Is the anxiety the cit? Is it mine? and ALSO to top it all off I have been bleeding from my backside for the past week, its fresh red blood and I have no discomfort but I wonder if thats the cit aswell?
The side effects I think Im still getting are
1) constant peeing
2) shaking arms and legs
3) raised anxiety
4) episodes of very low mood and inconsolable crying
5) clenched teeth
6) swaeting
7) agitation
8) fast strong heartbeat
9) sparadic shooting pains in my head - they dont last is just a BANG pain and then gone - sometmes once sometimes a few times in a row
what does all this mean? does it mean the drug is still trying to work? does it mean that my body just isnt accepting it>
someone please please advice me, its been so lomng and Im so lost I feel like I will never be myself again and I have my little boy to be there for, I dont know where to turn or what to do
Caroline
6 weeks on 20mg citalopram
first 4 weeks pure unbearable hell, anxiety like I have NEVER felt before constant crying if I could (sometimes the anxiety was too high to allow me to feel enough to cry) severe agitation, severe confusion, depersonalisation, sweating buckets teeth clenching fear and dread.
weeks 5 and 6 - moderate anxiety but still worse than I have EVER felt off meds, constant crying and desperation, less confusion and deperonalisation, increase in headaches terrible depression (which I have never suffered from in my life)
so Dr Nasty told me to come off the meds and she would put me on something else but Im too scared and Ive heard that they can take longer than that to work so agreed to cut down to 10mg
week 7 on 10mg - anxiety alot better - prob mild but still coming on for NO REASON at all, milder agitation but still there, still getting zings of pain in my brain and occasional brain heat happening in various areas on my brain. Still very depressed and crying at anything, only feel safe when Im in the bedroom alone.
But Im so scared that this anxiety is now MY LEARNED anxiety that cit has taught me to expect and to fear. I know the gp wants me to come off and try something else but I cant put myself through this again, I really cant, not when my origional complaint was so mild being 1 panic attack every couple of years.
So what do I do next? should I cut down to 5mg a day and see if my anxiety gets better still therefore I should know if its the cit still in my system making me feel like this and then stop altogether and try to deal with my anxiety through cbt
Or should I continue to take the 10mg for another week or so and see if I improve?
Or should I start taking 20 again now Ive had a week of 10?
The dr is no help at all and Im so confused and lost and I dont know what to do for the best,
Is the anxiety the cit? Is it mine? and ALSO to top it all off I have been bleeding from my backside for the past week, its fresh red blood and I have no discomfort but I wonder if thats the cit aswell?
The side effects I think Im still getting are
1) constant peeing
2) shaking arms and legs
3) raised anxiety
4) episodes of very low mood and inconsolable crying
5) clenched teeth
6) swaeting
7) agitation
8) fast strong heartbeat
9) sparadic shooting pains in my head - they dont last is just a BANG pain and then gone - sometmes once sometimes a few times in a row
what does all this mean? does it mean the drug is still trying to work? does it mean that my body just isnt accepting it>
someone please please advice me, its been so lomng and Im so lost I feel like I will never be myself again and I have my little boy to be there for, I dont know where to turn or what to do
Caroline