Devyn
01-09-12, 11:51
:weep: hi everyone, i'm probably the biggest hypochondriac on the planet... i'm only 17 and i've been tested for: colon cancer, HIV/AIDS, brain tumours, lung cancer, liver cancer, Leukemia, Lupus, Various neurological disorders and a bit more... so now that you've got that in the picture.
From when I wake up, I start thinking "What hurts..? does this hurt? is that a lump? i need to see a doctor tomorrow"
I think my doctor is sick of me by the way :huh:
as soon as i get up and im thinking about it, i start feeling dizzy, this feelings lasts until I go to bed, it's worse when I stand up of course, but it feels like im losing my insanity... the only way im keeping myself sane is on the internet, where i can distract my brain. but i still get all the symptoms i think i have.. when i think i have colon cancer, the slightest lump or abdominal pain will send me to the doctor..
One night i woke up at 3 in the morning shivering uncontrollably and gasping for breath. i rushed to the ER. after 8 hours in the hospital and various tests (They did a heart/lung x-ray. everything came back okay), they said I was fine and sent me home with a 9 day supply of .50 MG Xanax .
the xanax actually did a pretty good job, although it made me kind of high.. which i didn't like (I used to smoke marijuana). i'm just tired of all this.. and i wish i was back to 'normal' me. i would appreciate life so much more... i'm ruining my life over this, and i'm ONLY 17.
I have college starting spring 2013... and it couldn't be here any slower if it tried...
what should/can i do to distract myself from everything? i randomly panic over the smallest things and i've near-passed out (feeling where you're going down a rollercoaster) over stupid things. My anxiety doesn't make me think rationally and it's completely taken over my life.. the anxiety is winning. and i don't know how to stop it.
From when I wake up, I start thinking "What hurts..? does this hurt? is that a lump? i need to see a doctor tomorrow"
I think my doctor is sick of me by the way :huh:
as soon as i get up and im thinking about it, i start feeling dizzy, this feelings lasts until I go to bed, it's worse when I stand up of course, but it feels like im losing my insanity... the only way im keeping myself sane is on the internet, where i can distract my brain. but i still get all the symptoms i think i have.. when i think i have colon cancer, the slightest lump or abdominal pain will send me to the doctor..
One night i woke up at 3 in the morning shivering uncontrollably and gasping for breath. i rushed to the ER. after 8 hours in the hospital and various tests (They did a heart/lung x-ray. everything came back okay), they said I was fine and sent me home with a 9 day supply of .50 MG Xanax .
the xanax actually did a pretty good job, although it made me kind of high.. which i didn't like (I used to smoke marijuana). i'm just tired of all this.. and i wish i was back to 'normal' me. i would appreciate life so much more... i'm ruining my life over this, and i'm ONLY 17.
I have college starting spring 2013... and it couldn't be here any slower if it tried...
what should/can i do to distract myself from everything? i randomly panic over the smallest things and i've near-passed out (feeling where you're going down a rollercoaster) over stupid things. My anxiety doesn't make me think rationally and it's completely taken over my life.. the anxiety is winning. and i don't know how to stop it.