polbailey
02-09-12, 01:47
Hi,
For over a year I think I've had Health Anxiety. It all started with a pain within my hip which I realised I'd had for years and it still hadn't gone away. I'd never really thought much of this until... a good and very young friend of mine died of Bowel Cancer. As if from nowhere I had the niggling thought that I might have bone cancer in my hip. As soon as these thoughts were in my mind the pain seemed to suddenly get worse and worse daily, until I couldn't even sleep. I was completely convinced I had bone cancer and even told my partner. I spent weeks worrying about how my kids would manage without me etc etc. I then had an xray which came back clear. I couldn't trust this and paid for a private MRI - clear again.
Since then the worry of bone cancer has reduced and I do feel more reassured than I did before the MRI but then, I got a bad chest infection and I was sure I had pneumonia or even lung cancer. The CANCER thought seems to pop in to my head regularly, daily I think. After a chest xray and several GP visits and 2 lots of antibiotics I was OK.
Until... I noticed I get a strange sensation in my throat sometimes and it often feels a bit dry. Obviously this is throat cancer! I've been given mouthwash by the GP and now have to wait 2 weeks for my next appointment. I'm glad I have understanding GPs who do take me seriously because I know I'll be referred for further tests. Although I almost know they'll come back negative (all the other tests have done), I know I MUST have them as that's the only way I might feel some reassurance. I sound quite relaxed as I write this but several times a day I become 100% convinced I have throat cancer and that my kids will have to live without their mum, with a dad who isn't great and will also suffer the death of their amazing grandmother soon (she has a disease similar to cancer which can't be cured.) I dread the thought of my kids having to adjust their lives to all of that.
I'm getting quite embarassed as I walk into our GP surgery now. I know they must be starting to wonder about me and how I can have so many problems in such a short time. I almost wonder if I should just go and fess-up and ask for help for anxiety but I am hoping tha after the throat cancer scare dies down I might be OK. Until next time!
I'm so glad to have found this site. It's good to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.
:blush:
For over a year I think I've had Health Anxiety. It all started with a pain within my hip which I realised I'd had for years and it still hadn't gone away. I'd never really thought much of this until... a good and very young friend of mine died of Bowel Cancer. As if from nowhere I had the niggling thought that I might have bone cancer in my hip. As soon as these thoughts were in my mind the pain seemed to suddenly get worse and worse daily, until I couldn't even sleep. I was completely convinced I had bone cancer and even told my partner. I spent weeks worrying about how my kids would manage without me etc etc. I then had an xray which came back clear. I couldn't trust this and paid for a private MRI - clear again.
Since then the worry of bone cancer has reduced and I do feel more reassured than I did before the MRI but then, I got a bad chest infection and I was sure I had pneumonia or even lung cancer. The CANCER thought seems to pop in to my head regularly, daily I think. After a chest xray and several GP visits and 2 lots of antibiotics I was OK.
Until... I noticed I get a strange sensation in my throat sometimes and it often feels a bit dry. Obviously this is throat cancer! I've been given mouthwash by the GP and now have to wait 2 weeks for my next appointment. I'm glad I have understanding GPs who do take me seriously because I know I'll be referred for further tests. Although I almost know they'll come back negative (all the other tests have done), I know I MUST have them as that's the only way I might feel some reassurance. I sound quite relaxed as I write this but several times a day I become 100% convinced I have throat cancer and that my kids will have to live without their mum, with a dad who isn't great and will also suffer the death of their amazing grandmother soon (she has a disease similar to cancer which can't be cured.) I dread the thought of my kids having to adjust their lives to all of that.
I'm getting quite embarassed as I walk into our GP surgery now. I know they must be starting to wonder about me and how I can have so many problems in such a short time. I almost wonder if I should just go and fess-up and ask for help for anxiety but I am hoping tha after the throat cancer scare dies down I might be OK. Until next time!
I'm so glad to have found this site. It's good to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.
:blush: