skins12
02-09-12, 16:37
Sorry in advance for the long essay!!!
Sooooo ... I suffer from severe anxiety and any little thing can set it off even if its not related to me. I have been on the sick for a while. I am on my 6th week off and got another 2 more weeks to go before my review with the docs. I have been on meds and had counselling since i was 16.
Anyways, My anxiety has recently got worse and before i went on sick i got told at work to step down or leave and then i was told i was on the verge of getting sacked. Now that i am on the sick work have panicked and now they are like we are all here for you. I feel like they are being hypocrites but they are not really as they don't understand.
My friends and family want me to leave and not go back and whilst i have been off they have been helping me find a new job as the place i am in is not good for my health as they all say. I have been there nearly 7 years. I feel like its a safety net for me so am scared about going somewhere else.
My sister rang me yesterday afternoon and told me about a job going at her old work. She was talking to her old manager and she put my name forward. She still works for the same company but has moved to another store as she is an assistant manager there now. She said it would be ideal for me to go to as its less stressful than the job i am in now and there is less pressure and she is always on the end of the phone so said i should go for it. All my friends and family agree.
Anyways, last night i was talking with my family about the job and brought up my anxiety and said what am i going to do about it my anxiety affects it. My dad was like don't mention it and lie and i was like i can't. I'm just upset coz then my dad started getting angry at me and i said you don't understand. My mum went to agree with me and then he shouted at her so my sisters and i walked off as he started to blame my mum on the way my mum treated me growing up. She got upset as we didn't back her up.
Today my parents haven't said a word to each other and my mum is constantly crying. Including me. I feel like its all my fault due to my anxiety as it ruins my life and everything i do. I just don't know anymore and with what happened last night!!!!!!!!!!! Luckily i have my counselor tomorrow so that will help.
Sooooo ... I suffer from severe anxiety and any little thing can set it off even if its not related to me. I have been on the sick for a while. I am on my 6th week off and got another 2 more weeks to go before my review with the docs. I have been on meds and had counselling since i was 16.
Anyways, My anxiety has recently got worse and before i went on sick i got told at work to step down or leave and then i was told i was on the verge of getting sacked. Now that i am on the sick work have panicked and now they are like we are all here for you. I feel like they are being hypocrites but they are not really as they don't understand.
My friends and family want me to leave and not go back and whilst i have been off they have been helping me find a new job as the place i am in is not good for my health as they all say. I have been there nearly 7 years. I feel like its a safety net for me so am scared about going somewhere else.
My sister rang me yesterday afternoon and told me about a job going at her old work. She was talking to her old manager and she put my name forward. She still works for the same company but has moved to another store as she is an assistant manager there now. She said it would be ideal for me to go to as its less stressful than the job i am in now and there is less pressure and she is always on the end of the phone so said i should go for it. All my friends and family agree.
Anyways, last night i was talking with my family about the job and brought up my anxiety and said what am i going to do about it my anxiety affects it. My dad was like don't mention it and lie and i was like i can't. I'm just upset coz then my dad started getting angry at me and i said you don't understand. My mum went to agree with me and then he shouted at her so my sisters and i walked off as he started to blame my mum on the way my mum treated me growing up. She got upset as we didn't back her up.
Today my parents haven't said a word to each other and my mum is constantly crying. Including me. I feel like its all my fault due to my anxiety as it ruins my life and everything i do. I just don't know anymore and with what happened last night!!!!!!!!!!! Luckily i have my counselor tomorrow so that will help.