Bookish
03-09-12, 00:39
I'm feeling a bit rubbish right now - anxiety, depression... - so nothing I write here is going to be very positive. But it sucks to be alone.
Just started a new job in a new place with new people. Day 3 looms and I'm struggling, been sleeping less and less. I came up to be nearer my fiancé. He is great, but he doesn't really understand, and he just ditched me again tonight to watch telly with his housemate/best friend. Yes, I know he needs down time too - he has tomorrow off. I have a difficult day tomorrow doing an evening thing with kids that's compulsory for everyone here. And yes, I'm also very jealous he gets to keep all his friends while I have to leave mine - the only change for him is that I'm more convenient; everything has changed for me.
...is the general gist of things.
Just started a new job in a new place with new people. Day 3 looms and I'm struggling, been sleeping less and less. I came up to be nearer my fiancé. He is great, but he doesn't really understand, and he just ditched me again tonight to watch telly with his housemate/best friend. Yes, I know he needs down time too - he has tomorrow off. I have a difficult day tomorrow doing an evening thing with kids that's compulsory for everyone here. And yes, I'm also very jealous he gets to keep all his friends while I have to leave mine - the only change for him is that I'm more convenient; everything has changed for me.
...is the general gist of things.