crimperess
05-09-12, 05:14
I've not long awoke with that sudden 'rush' in my chest and the feeling you have got to get away. I have a history of anxiety/panic attacks going way back but have been free of them for quite a while. Since I have become hypothyroid (under active thyroid) I've felt tired, achy, and have palpitations.
When I get these attacks, I'm my own worst enemy. I want to hide away as I'm ashamed of myself for not coping. I am afraid of going back to how I was (depressed and agoraphobic) losing years of my life. My husband say's he can't cope with my illnesses so I don't feel I can share it with him. It's a fear of the fear.
The night time is worse as it's the 'lonely hours'. Although my daughter and friends have said I can ring them at anytime, I won't ring them at night. My husband is blissfully asleep upstairs as I write this as I feel I can't wake him as he can't cope with it anyway.
Why can't I be strong like other people?
Thank you for reading this.:weep:
When I get these attacks, I'm my own worst enemy. I want to hide away as I'm ashamed of myself for not coping. I am afraid of going back to how I was (depressed and agoraphobic) losing years of my life. My husband say's he can't cope with my illnesses so I don't feel I can share it with him. It's a fear of the fear.
The night time is worse as it's the 'lonely hours'. Although my daughter and friends have said I can ring them at anytime, I won't ring them at night. My husband is blissfully asleep upstairs as I write this as I feel I can't wake him as he can't cope with it anyway.
Why can't I be strong like other people?
Thank you for reading this.:weep: