fran43
29-07-06, 17:44
Hi to all my new found friends.
Finally arrived after 30 hours in transit (please dont ask, our airline caused us to stay in Paris. So I have travelled from where I live to Southampton, Southampton to Paris, 24 hours in Paris in a small hotel room, Paris to Cinncinati and Cinncinati to Orlando.
Managed to get through with quite a few drinks, not a good coping mechanism, hate the feeling of being unreal, conversation all jumbled, too many people. The house is nice but I still feel unreal and irritable, even with my young child. Now I am dreading going home again and we are three weeks away.
Why I do I feel the negatives all the time? That is despite my husband telling me I am doing well. Perhaps it is the depression coupled with acute anxiety.
I am so protective of my son and the last flight did not help where we were all seperated. The air stewardess then pointed out I was on a exit and what responsibility that entailed and said she was in a crash. that was it, I organised that my husband and son sit together and my sister and brother-in-law sat with me.
I hate this feeling and dont know how long it will last. My husband does not understand the way I feel or how forgetful I am of conversation (that includes the forum as well). How long will this take to get better, I feel I have such overriding responsibility despite hubby telling me dont worry. He was so looking forward to this holiday and know I am going to spoil it for all of them.
It is so early days for me. Take care of yourselves and each other.
FranXX
Finally arrived after 30 hours in transit (please dont ask, our airline caused us to stay in Paris. So I have travelled from where I live to Southampton, Southampton to Paris, 24 hours in Paris in a small hotel room, Paris to Cinncinati and Cinncinati to Orlando.
Managed to get through with quite a few drinks, not a good coping mechanism, hate the feeling of being unreal, conversation all jumbled, too many people. The house is nice but I still feel unreal and irritable, even with my young child. Now I am dreading going home again and we are three weeks away.
Why I do I feel the negatives all the time? That is despite my husband telling me I am doing well. Perhaps it is the depression coupled with acute anxiety.
I am so protective of my son and the last flight did not help where we were all seperated. The air stewardess then pointed out I was on a exit and what responsibility that entailed and said she was in a crash. that was it, I organised that my husband and son sit together and my sister and brother-in-law sat with me.
I hate this feeling and dont know how long it will last. My husband does not understand the way I feel or how forgetful I am of conversation (that includes the forum as well). How long will this take to get better, I feel I have such overriding responsibility despite hubby telling me dont worry. He was so looking forward to this holiday and know I am going to spoil it for all of them.
It is so early days for me. Take care of yourselves and each other.
FranXX