lwsabr07
07-09-12, 16:13
been reading some of the posts on this site and most of them are me. started off worrying about small things, muscle pain etc but as i told myself that they were nothing they got worse and i developed/noticed more aches and pains. i dont think it helps with the fact i've not left hospital this year properly. in jan i had heart surgery for a condition i have, it was suppost to work but didnt. 2 weeks after that i was hit my a taxi on my motor bike and broke my leg so i was in a full leg cast for 5 months. had the second set of heart surgery (fingers crossed it worked this time) but no such luck. the doctor told me the operation was a success and i will not have any problems from then on. unfortunatly the surgery did not work both times after being told that i wouldnt get any more palpatations. i think that a lot of my health anxiety comes from this... being "let down" by health professionals twice after being reasured. so from then on i got it into my head that i would be my own doctor and google things that i had (WORST IDEA EVER!)and now every day i convince myself that i have nuerous forms of cancer or leukemia. obviously worrying about these things caused headaches, loss of sleep and on occations mild panic attacks.
only problem is that i have a genuine fear of going to the doctors with these symptoms and my fears becoming reality. i am only 18 and it is highly unlikley that i have a brain tumour, throat, lung, testicular, bowel and thyroid cancer. i allways tell myself that because i have not been to the doctors then it could have spread to all these other places. i'm in no severe pain, nothing worth taking pain killers for anyway...
i just wish that i could worry about what every other 18 year old does, missing x factor, who's dating who, nights out, getting a job. and not worrying myself sick about dieing... any help or even people going through similar things sharing their story would be a help to me right now...
lewis.
only problem is that i have a genuine fear of going to the doctors with these symptoms and my fears becoming reality. i am only 18 and it is highly unlikley that i have a brain tumour, throat, lung, testicular, bowel and thyroid cancer. i allways tell myself that because i have not been to the doctors then it could have spread to all these other places. i'm in no severe pain, nothing worth taking pain killers for anyway...
i just wish that i could worry about what every other 18 year old does, missing x factor, who's dating who, nights out, getting a job. and not worrying myself sick about dieing... any help or even people going through similar things sharing their story would be a help to me right now...
lewis.