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EHJ
07-09-12, 17:24
Hi,
This is my first post but I'm looking for some support/advice/help from someone, well anyone really!

Background:I'm 35 years old, married with 2 beautiful little girls, I work full time and am always on the go and up until December last year I was absolutely fine. I'll try and summarise what's happened although please bear with me as it's been a long nine months.

December 2011 (Xmas week) - stomach cramps, nausea but no sickness, didn't eat for 3 days and then horrendous stomach upset when I did on Xmas day (Fab!). Dr put down to a virus.

NYE - Had my first migraine with an aura. It was a zig-zag line accross my left eye. disappeared quickly but happened again twice over the next week. Felt helpless like I was waiting for something bad to happen. Prescribed beta blockers but came off them after 3/4 weeks.

Jan-Mar 2012 - continued to have stomach upsets and feel 'off'. Also had random pains in calfs/arms. This all resulted in a colonoscopy and gastroscopy both of which were fine. Stomach/bowel symptoms seemed to go after this. Bloods tests all fine.

April - admitted to hospital with suspected apendicitis. After Xrays, CT scans and an MRI they told me I have a cyst. It was an ovarian cyst at first and the end result was .... they don't think it's anything bad, it's attached to my bowel/ovary and it's not doing anything so they'll leave it. Fine by me if it's not cancerous!

June- Came back from holiday having been fine and went in a matter of days to having pains in my legs, started in my right calf then went to both. Got checked out for clots - all fine. Noticed at this time that my calf muscles were twitching of their own accord and I have a tremor in my hands which comes and goes. More blood tests all fine. Told they'd just 'disappear' by Dr.

Early August - back to Dr concerned with leg twitching. Told basically to exercise, relax and forget about it but to come back in a month if still feel like that.

In mid August we went away but I was constantly aware of the leg twitching and then the day before we left I started with random symptoms such as a spot/ulcer under my tongue. My mouth was constantly filling with saliva and I had aches/pains under my chin and in my neck. I felt awful. I then developed headaches at the back of my head and my neck was sore. My scalp was sore and my skull was painful to touch at the back. I also had the worst earache I have ever experienced. I called the emrgency DR when we got home that evening and they told me it sounded like I had a virus. By last Wednesday I felt no better and so went in - same answer. No infections.

My earache has now eased slightly but is still there, as is my neck pain and my headaches. I also feel like I've got something stuck in my throat now which is horrible although I seem to be swallowing OK.

My legs are still twitching... they've been doing so now for 3 months or more. it's there all the time.

I sometimes feel like my body is trembling inside but I can't see anything moving. if that makes sense.

I feel so bad, I found myself driving to open surgery this morning but turned around half way there as I know they'll just send me away. I know they think it's all in my head and that I'm suffering all these symptoms due to stress/anxiety.

I've had my eyes tested twice this year due to the headaches and an increase in floaters but they've said - yes you've guessed it..... they're fine.

I'm convinced there's something horribly wrong with me. I'm convinced I have motor neurone disease or MS or a brain tumour as I can't beleive anything else would make me feel this way.

I'm sorry for going on and on... my husband looks at me like I have two heads. My step dad is a Dr but specialises in sports medicine. He has tried his best to reassure me I'm fine but it lasts about a day.

I'm so tired of feeling this way but I honestly have this fear that all this is leading to some terrible discovery, that it's not stress ,it's something neurological and something really really bad which I won't recover from that they're not going to find until it's too late because they keep sending me away.

I'm a sensible girl really. I can't beleive how 9 months can change so much.

Do you think I have HA? Do you think I should ask to be referred to a neurologist??

Please help :(

mollymalloy
10-09-12, 20:34
Dear EHJ
I am sorry that you are not doing well and that there is a constant worry about your health. I had my first panic attach 2 years ago and It was a horrible experience. Ended up at the ER. All the sympoms you decribe I have had at some point or other, I do have good times for the most time but the moment I feel something my mind goes into over drive. I also see my self as a sensible girl and down to earth but have realized that when it come to think clearly on this matter I am anything but sensible, I still can't google things or watch medical programs on telly because it influences my mind.
My advise to you is to go and see a therapist who will give good advise on how to cope on a moment to moment basis. It is hard for us to believe that all this stems from anxciety alone but there are so many of us here on no more panic who do experience the same symptoms that you are having.
Don't know if this helps you any but hope that you get the help that you need and that you'll be able to start enjoying life again.