panickygirl
12-09-12, 09:07
Hi everyone,
I'm feeling terrible at the moment. Yesterday one of my friends told me some good news via text and I was so happy for her that I shared it with the girls that I was with (who were mutual friends). It's not private news at all, it's an amazing achievement and I thought she'd be telling them, I guess. Anyway, as soon as I'd done that I found out she didn't want anyone to know (just because she didn't want to jinx it) so I became anxious, worrying that I'd done a bad thing.
I spoke to her later in the afternoon and she told me why didn't want anyone to know, she's a much more private person than I am and doesn't like to share things about herself, even good things. She wasn't that angry with me, just annoyed a bit I guess, which is fair enough.
Anyway now I just feel like a bad friend and really guilty and worried (cos if something does go wrong with it now I'll feel like I jinxed it for her) and also it was her news and she should have decided when to tell people. I seem to have no filter on my mouth these days and am so sick of doing the wrong thing and then feeling genuinely awful about it for days/weeks after.
I was wondering if anyone else had the feeling with anxiety that they were a bad person, and if they found that feeling hard to shake, as I am. Also if when they did something wrong, they found it impossible to come to terms with and move on from, and just continually beat themselves up. I know in my heart of hearts this is probably not a big deal (though it's something to learn from and not repeat in the future) but I can't stop thinking about it and panicking about it, it's exhausting.
Would appreciate any advice etc.
Thanks,
PanickyGirl x x
I'm feeling terrible at the moment. Yesterday one of my friends told me some good news via text and I was so happy for her that I shared it with the girls that I was with (who were mutual friends). It's not private news at all, it's an amazing achievement and I thought she'd be telling them, I guess. Anyway, as soon as I'd done that I found out she didn't want anyone to know (just because she didn't want to jinx it) so I became anxious, worrying that I'd done a bad thing.
I spoke to her later in the afternoon and she told me why didn't want anyone to know, she's a much more private person than I am and doesn't like to share things about herself, even good things. She wasn't that angry with me, just annoyed a bit I guess, which is fair enough.
Anyway now I just feel like a bad friend and really guilty and worried (cos if something does go wrong with it now I'll feel like I jinxed it for her) and also it was her news and she should have decided when to tell people. I seem to have no filter on my mouth these days and am so sick of doing the wrong thing and then feeling genuinely awful about it for days/weeks after.
I was wondering if anyone else had the feeling with anxiety that they were a bad person, and if they found that feeling hard to shake, as I am. Also if when they did something wrong, they found it impossible to come to terms with and move on from, and just continually beat themselves up. I know in my heart of hearts this is probably not a big deal (though it's something to learn from and not repeat in the future) but I can't stop thinking about it and panicking about it, it's exhausting.
Would appreciate any advice etc.
Thanks,
PanickyGirl x x