GirlAfraid23
16-09-12, 17:11
This may be fairly difficult to describe and make others understand, however every late afternoon/evening on a work day or sunday I get an overwhelming anxiety that comes over me in waves because I know I have to be up at 6am for work the next day. I also begin the process of worrying about the next day & how it will pan out, especially if something out of the ordinary is happening or I won't be home until late etc etc.
I have this already for tomorrow - its a new job and I am enjoying it but its making my anxiety worse than ever before and I am trying my hardest to ignore it but it is very difficult.
I am a creature of routine and habit and always find this helps my anxiety, however due to this new job I have had to change my eating times (lunch is later than usual at 2pm) and obviously bed times/waking up times alongside what I am eating & even washing my hair (having to do it the night before)
I know these all sound like trivial, everyday occurances but unfortunatley my anxiety prevents me from just carrying on like a normal, stable human being & I feel I have no control over my own life which scares me somewhat.
I still can't get my head round the fact that I will be doing this routine or pretty much close to it for the rest of my life until I am 65 years old or whatever - another 40 odd years. Its insane! And scares me.
Does anyone else have this overwhelming anxiety? I really don't want to mess up my chances with this job, but already I feel like calling in sick and I really don't want to do that as I did in other jobs.
I have this already for tomorrow - its a new job and I am enjoying it but its making my anxiety worse than ever before and I am trying my hardest to ignore it but it is very difficult.
I am a creature of routine and habit and always find this helps my anxiety, however due to this new job I have had to change my eating times (lunch is later than usual at 2pm) and obviously bed times/waking up times alongside what I am eating & even washing my hair (having to do it the night before)
I know these all sound like trivial, everyday occurances but unfortunatley my anxiety prevents me from just carrying on like a normal, stable human being & I feel I have no control over my own life which scares me somewhat.
I still can't get my head round the fact that I will be doing this routine or pretty much close to it for the rest of my life until I am 65 years old or whatever - another 40 odd years. Its insane! And scares me.
Does anyone else have this overwhelming anxiety? I really don't want to mess up my chances with this job, but already I feel like calling in sick and I really don't want to do that as I did in other jobs.